I know! I went to a riding school/trekking centre with DP and it was, i don't know, an empty experience. I miss that connection more than i miss riding itself iykwim.

There was a lovely old ex-polo gelding, Ronnie, i used to ride. Got an SMS yesterday telling me he'd died the day before. Don't know the story yet, he must have been at least 28 though. Still sad. He was one of those horses with terrible conformation, looked like he'd been lashed together with string the vet said, but he had brilliant manners and was just such a gentleman. Speedy but only if he felt you could cope with it - really kind to beginners, little bit cheeky with the rest of us. Him owner must be in bits

Bx