I've been getting restless legs of a night time, just in my calves, so I get DH to rub them instead of my feet if they are really bad. The extra blood flow seems to help I think?
I'm feeling slightly better about birth now, I think it was as was mentioned before - a crisis of confidence (thats what it was wasn't it?) I was thinking last night while I was putting DD3 to sleep (because I will be birthing in her room) and I was breaking it down in my head - my midwife doesn't expect me to labour longer than 5 hours, if I manage my breathing. Surely I can manage my breathing for that small amount of time. Then I was getting into the nitty gritty, if I have a contraction every 5 minutes, thats like 20 an hour, so 100 contractions that I would have to get through. At least half of those would be early type labour and very manageable, and in my last labour it was really only the last half an hour before pushing that I found them harder to manage - so thats like 6ish contractions that could possibly be harder for me to manage.
Overall - that doesn't seem like very much so in my (somewhat illogical) brain - of COURSE I can do this!
I've done it before, I will do it again and it won't be like Eden's labour because I didn't know anything back then. I didn't know that the more it was hurting the closer I was getting to the end - I know that now. I didn't know that I would survive it - I know I will now.
So thats just my musings for the moment.
On a different matter - why are so many people against homebirth? I don't get it? The biggest thing I get is - "aren't you scared of birthing at home instead of in a hospital?" and "what if something goes wrong and the baby dies?"
I don't get what can go wrong at home that can't go wrong in the hospital? Its like babies don't die in the hospital or something - and its only home birth that is risky. I think if you have any medical professional that isn't good at what they do, then something could happen any where... Maybe this is just coming from my personal experience - my sister lost her baby at 38 weeks and the week before she was contracting and losing fluid, but refused to ring the hospital and go and get checked up. Maybe if she had a midwife that she trusted, she might have told her what was going on and then she may not have lost her? I dunno, just random thoughts in my head that I have to get out, so I apologise to everyone for my random thoughts here.......
*cough cough* Uh. Carry on.
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