Thanks for all the empathy girls. I am really appreciating hearing the stories. My last time I think I had such a good run, that I am struggling with struggling with this one. But I will work on my attitude, and keep trying to maintain a good perspective.
Yay Sterla!!!!! Your homebirth would be amazing with Anna by your side, I just know it.
Bella - I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling with this pregnancy, I've had a few rough ones as well so you have my sympathies. If you wanted to catch up for a cuppa any time, let me know
I've been somewhat avoiding this thread, its still hard to get my head around DS2's birth - so much so that I'm pretty much avoiding my midwife. I was supposed to go for his 6 week check with her, but I couldn't do it. I feel like a fraud for even coming in here and I'm not exactly sure if I should see someone about it or not. I had the MCHN come and see me the other week, they do some home visits up here in our area, and she asked me questions about the birth. Not only could I not look her in the eye while speaking, I had chills when going through what happened and I started to get all teary. Plus I went to a birthday party with DD1 a few weeks ago and the other mothers there asked me about the birth, and I got teary when telling them as well.
Definitely not a perfect end to my birthing journey, and I fear that I've damaged the kids permanently - DD1 tells me all the time that she is not going to have any children because "it hurts". They all heard my screaming that night (what can I say, a hole in the uterus hurts more than normal contractions do!) so now I just feel stupid for doing that to them. *sigh*
Anyway, thats why I've not been around in here......
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