Arimeh's Eden- I KNOW you can do it again!! I think having a good, honest chat with your midwife could help.

I guess I'm lucky that my hospital birth (birth centre) didn't involve any medication or interventions so I was still able to have the labour I wanted. It got a bit tricky at the end though as they were talking about transfer so I'm looking forward to not having dumb rules placed on me this time. I wasn't scared of labour but I don't like pain and I was pretty tense through most contractions, though I did manage a joke and small chat here and there. I also needed to squat pretty much the entire time so I could barely walk afterwards.

So like you, I do find labour painful. Contractions hurt. I wish I was one of those women who didn't feel it hurt but it does. That said, it's a natural pain that I didn't feel I needed to be removed from. It's not like a sore leg that you're not sure why it's sore or when it will stop... it's pain with a reason that you know will end. And THEN you get to feel like a champion. It's the most amazing thing I've done in my life. It has given me so much strength and power. I know you can, and will, do it again. You're a hero!