HotI, I went thru a BC with my DD. It was all of the restrictions and rules that had me so stressed in the end and left me feeling like I had to fight everything. I didnt realize that I would be simply unable to do that during labour. Anyway the point I am making is that BC's are great if everything goes perfectly and terrible in their own ways because the midwives don't really have any autonomy. They are forced to tow the line most of the time and I never expected them to endanger their livelihoods for me, which they would have in order to face off against the dr's. It is not because the midwives aren't lovely, it is just because there is a major power imbalance in hospital care. Anyway I am sure I am preaching to the converted! Lol.

Afm well I am looking into midwives ATM. I find myself strangely reluctant for some reason tho. Not sure why. When I got pregnant in feb, I had a MW booked to chat to by 5.5 weeks just before the mc. This time I am more worried plus I think I have watched a close gf interview lots of the local mw's since then and a lot of them were quite fearful of birth in their own way. I know I am gonna have lots of my hubbies fears to deal with as well as my own issues about the last birth and struggling to believe in myself. I don't need a midwife who is scared to trust a woman to birth her baby iykwim? Anyway it will all work out in the end.

PZ, how you going honey? Are you all excited? Can't be long now