Ash- I bought some herbs from a place called blissful herbs. She has some lovely stuff. I got almost everything she has for pregnancy, labour, postnatal peri care and breast feeding. There are some really lovely things there. I think meow or someone else in here told me about her. She is really lovely too. She's a doula by the name of Julie Bell.
HotI - I can completely relate to where u r at babe. Most of the time I feel quite positive and excited about this labour. This morning I woke up tired after a bit of a sleepless night. Not sure why I had trouble going to sleep. Anyway, I just have felt a bit fearful today. Not of the birth itself. I have complete faith that my body can give birth to this baby. I am more scared of the pain. I have no illusions about my pain tolerance. To put it bluntly, I am a sook. Which on one hand makes me very glad to have a home birth, because I have no doubt I would ask/beg for pain relief at some point and it would be too easy for ppl to give it to me. But u know it also scares me that I just plain won't cope and will be a screaming mess. But these are fears. I just am tired and a bit emotional today. I have great support and I am sure they will help me cope and support me.
DH had a sleep in this morning as he prepares for an afternoon and oncall shift tonight, but he got up at 9:30 and let me go back to sleep till 11:30. So I feel a bit better, although still emotional today. Anyone else in here have a low pain threshold but cope ok with labour? I think I will just have to take it one contraction at a time. I can do that.
I can totally relate to those fears. I remember that in the last couple of weeks I silently questioned my ability to actually cope with the pain.
i remember the pain and fear of that first birth in hospital. i had peth and gas, and it still hurt.
what was amazing when the time came was that there just wasnt the space for that fear. when it really happens, the joy overtakes. it is so so different ITMS.
I remember i had a night of 'this is it' waves. i was so so scared. excited but also scared. i wasn't ready. I had DD2 8 days later and not once, from that first wave on her birth day did fear even show her face. I think that experiencing that fear at an earlier moment is an important step, a moment to release those inhibitions, embrace them and send them out; as a valid experience, an experience of the past, but as an experience that no longer has a hold on this journey. go with it girls
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