marcellus - Had some down moments today, mainly about how this has been high intervention all the way through, and it would be really nice if my body just worked for a change, however I think that I would rather be told upfront about the risks so I can come to terms with it. And I have to accept the fact that I am not 25 and can call all the shots.

belfie - I agree that being shown the whole picture makes it a lot easier to deal with - just have to process it now.

Thanks everyone for your input - it really helped today.