I can't believe how close we got to it, after I was so not confident at the start of it even working. After my many annoying posts in the BFing chatter thread with so many stupid questions (thanks to all that took the time to answer, very much appreciated) and I didn't think that I would even get past 6 weeks.
We got through the year of 2 hourly feeds. We got through the biting.
And now because of an accidental pregnancy, my milk has completely dried up. She falls asleep with daddy now instead of me. Its quite upsetting to get SO close to something and to not get there.
*sigh* From DS feeding for 3 days, DD1 not feeding at all, DD2 feeding for one month (mixed feeding) and now my record of 23 months with DD3.
Its sad. Could be pregnancy hormones but I'm crying and angry that it ended this way.
You did an amazing, amazing job. Seriously. The same thing happened to me, except we only made it to 13 months. So I know what you mean about it ending the way it did. But you really did do an amazing job
Fabulous! Right now you're no doubt feeling some pretty mixed emotions - and I think it's totally understandable that you're feeling sad and disappointed - but in time I hope you'll look back and feel really proud. You did it. 23 months, 24 months, well it's all good. And just think - how long will you feed your next little one...?
Im sorry your breastfeeding relationship has ended the way it has and its not suprising that you are angry and upset. This isnt the way you planned it.
Having said that, you have done an amazing job, you perservered through so much. You should be so proud of yourselves and Im sure in time you will be. For now just give yourself time to grieve what you have lost - allow yourself to feel however you need to and dont let anyone invalidate those feelings.
babe - sorry it hasn't ended the way you imagine, but you seriously are amazing and should also be so proud about what you have achieved after everything you went through! xoxoxo
Well done!!! I hope it's a bit of sad/happy you feel in some way. You've done so well to get as far as you did and really should be proud of yourself. I too was cut short feeding my son when i fell pregnant with my daughter. We carried on until i was almost 3 months (he was 14-15 months) but i just couldn't stand it any longer, there were a few biting incidents that really really hurt and my nipples became so sensitive that i was cringing in anticipation of him latching on. I felt quite guilty though too because i was hoping to make it to two years with him. We didn't but i have with my daughter
Good luck with your pregnancy journey and hopefully you'll get just as far if not further with chicken #5 xo
Oh Mel, big hugs hunny. I can understand your frustration at not being able to end things when both you and your little miss wanted to, you were both kind of forced into it by nature. I think I would probably feel the same too.
But please also try to recognise the awesome achievement you and Miss S have made. You've done a great job, and have given her a great gift of yourself and your milk.
Thanks everyone. I blogged about it last night, and it helped looking back at some photos - from being such a very small baby to the big girl she is now! I am proud, but still sad - much sadder than I thought I would be, I didn't think I would feel like this.
I gave her some milk in a sippy cup just before, and she drank it, and then went to sleep in her bed. Sad
Totally understand you being upset arimeh. I struggled for the first 3 months, and thought id do extended feeding into tandem feeding. But 2 months into pg ds decided he didn't want boobie anymore. He was 20 months.
And it makes me feel horrible. Maybe I should have kept feeding on demand, even after bouts of mastitis. Maybe I never should have given him cows milk. I don't know. But he decided this on his own, and I guess its my job to let it go. My milk just wasn't fast enough. I just miss the cuddles.
Occasionally when he's having q bottle I'll pick him up and cradle him whilst he drinks. Reminds me how much I miss bf. But I love when we look deeply into each others eyes.
Sorry for the hijack. Thought is let you know I also know how it feels. Hugs.
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