Thank you for sharing your story. How awful for you to have such a difficult start with a new baby. Sadly the problem of bad bfing advice in hossy is too common.

I think the best preparation for bfing is to attend an ABA class while pg. It is so helpful to have information up front and to rely less on the mws, many of whom are not trained to assist with bfing. I would recommend that you hire a LC next time, rather than contact a mw, as a qualified LC will give you the very best bfing advice and assistance. Also WRT to your medication, there is a doctor at the Monash drug information line who specialises is bfing and drugs. If you would like his number just post again and one of us will post it for you. He has the very best info on what is safe and wasn't isn't.

I hope that with the experience you have from your first baby, and with the knowledge and support that you can get from here, the ABA etc, that you are able to bf next time. It is a really great feeling when you get it all working. Best of luck to you, and big hugs for the pain that you have been through.