Thank you so much NJD and Fiona. I really appreciate what you have both said. I have already tried several other options including different medications 'safe' for BF, general painkillers and even homeopathy. Unfortunately my RA has become so bad that none of these choices have been successful. Because I knew I might eventually get to this point I have been researching this since before we even conceived.

Fiona, you're right about being in pain affecting me emotionally and as a result my relationship with my DH, I don't want it have a negative impact on that. I'm so glad you said there's more to being a mother than BF. The general care and relationship I have with my son is highly important too.

I guess over time I will start to accept the situation more, especially when I'm no longer in constant pain and can enjoy being a new mum more.

Thanks again to both of you for your understanding.