It's so hard when what our heart tells us is best is not what our head KNOWS is best. I really ached reading your post. I weaned for a medical reason (easier physically because my milk just vanished so i had little choice...) and it was so painful when we'd finally stopped (7 months).

I found making time for skin to skin makes a big difference for us, even if there can't be boobie milk at the same time. I weaned her off breastmilk in November 2006 and we STILL now have baths and showers together and occasionally co-sleep skin to skin (because i sleep naked and she strips off at every opportunity. It really helps me stay connected with her.

Bx