Hi, Salsa,

You have had a really tough time. I'm glad you felt you could debrief here with us. It's an absolute credit to you that you were able to keep breastfeeding under these circumstances. You might consider writing to the hospital - hard, I know, but they really need to know about your experience so they can change their practices. As time passes you'll make more sense of what happened to you. Seek out supportive people. The Australian Breastfeeding Association is a very fabulous and welcoming organisation where breastfeeding is the norm but there is plenty of understanding of the difficulties mothers face
Regards
Barb