I'm sorry you are feeling pressure from others! Whatever direction you decide is a perfectly acceptable choice and nobody should make you feel otherwise. If you continue with weaning, be proud because 20months is such a brilliant achievement and through a pregnancy!! I don't think there is anything wrong with using a bit of distraction to encourage this. If you want to keep feeding know there are many others who have been there or are there and can support you, even if you don't have any in real life. I'm currently feeding my almost 3 year old and just over 1 month old but if DD1 went over a week without feeding, I would be trying to gently continue the weaning process.