Meredith, I don't know if it will be any consellation but I have recently been through weaning too, for my own reasons -I was tired, exhausted and had glandular fever. We used Elijah's third birthday as a trigger, and I HAD to stick to my guns. But he is older and it was so hard for me - I almost gave in. He started hitting me, getting angry at me and crying alot. He wanted to be with daddy and not me. Now he has become a daddy's boy but it's normal at his age. It breaks my heart too - it was so hard. So you could feed until he is three and still have the same guilt... please don't be hard on yourself hon, I think a very special present is in order too. What do YOU really want? x