I know i have been against wearing of the veil but every now and then i think about it.

I will wear it in front of the mirror and then take it off as i look "wrong" in it.

I want to wear it because I want to follow in God's way.

I want to start praying again, but i have forgotten how to

I am in such a search, in such a thirst for knowledge that i can't sleep at night.

I dream Islam. I show other people the books i am reading in my dreams, tell them the amazing facts that i have learnt about.

Am i losing the plot?

I feel like making an appt (?) with an imam to discuss all my questions, to continue drenching my thirst for knowledge, to just talk about islam.

I'm scared that i am going to go mad. I cannot get enough information.