TD I'm not really religious but it sounds like you are going through a stage of being very passionate about Islam. I think you should just go with it - dig deeper, research, learn, discover, talk to people in the know and other seekers. Whatever it takes to satisfy the desire IYKWIM. The desire is there for a reason, its leading you to something. You will probably find in the end that its something you didn't expect, but why fight it... I think its a positive thing