Hi Petta,

I'm sorry to hear you have experienced such horrible side effects and are back to square 1 again in your journey. It's an awful feeling thinking - god I'm back to where I started X years ago. On my own journey I have often looked back and thought it's not fair (and I haven't been through the heartbreak you have of miscarrying). Early on I spent 6 months building up a good relationship with a guy who was going to be a known donor. I felt very confident about our future with him having regular contact with the child. He then changed his mind just as we were finally about to sign our legal agreement (after months of negoiating it). He never gave me a reason and to this day I still don't know why he changed his mind. Not only did I lose my donor though - I also lost someone I considered a friend as once he changed his mind I never heard from him again. So I was back to square 1. In Feb this year, after my last failed AI attempt I thought - god I have been on this journey over 3 years now and I'm no closer to having a child then I was when I started... in fact I'm probably further from it because I am 3 years older (so my fertility is reduced). It's hard not to let it get you down... but I'm hoping that now I'm doing IVF I will hopefully be one of the lucky ones.

Best wishes to you.

Thanks for the heads up about feeling hot... hopefully I won't be too bad as I have my own office at work but it is centrally heated/air conditioned so I can't alter the temp in there.

Lori