Hi.

I am new to this forum.
My husband and are starting our first IVF cycle in a few weeks.
I have PCOS and my husband has low sperm count.
We started trying for a baby when we got married, which was a year ago. We were then told, after countless blood tests and sperm samples, months on Clomid, specialist appiontments and the like, that our chances of natural conception were no more than 5%.
I don't really know how to explain how I feel or what's going through my mind.
Other than to say I'm grieving. I am so very sad.
I have told one of my two best friends. But I don't talk about it with her. I don't want to hear "stay positive" or "there's always adoption". I wish people could sit with my pain, and rather than think about how uncomfortable it makes them, they could take a moment to imagine where my husband and I are standing.
My husband is a beautiful man. We talk a lot and very honestly about the ivf but I still can't figure out where he's at. I think he's too busy being my strength at the moment.
...I'm scared, anxious, terrified of the ivf journey but at the same time I cannot appreciate enough this amazing opportunity for a chance at conceiving our own child. It is truly breathtaking what modern science can potentially do.
I'm not really asking any questions in this post, just wanting to hear from others who know what I'm talking about and may have experienced or currently are experiencing ivf.

Veronica