Hi Aussiejo,

Firstly I just want to give you some of these - I know the place you're in right now, and its horrible

Like Dutchie said, unfortunately your first cycle is such an experiment - they have no idea how the drugs will respond in your body so its all just a game of trial & error unfortunately...

My TTC story is massive so I'll try & simplify it for the purpose of this post but we have had numerous disappointments along the way as well.

Our first cycle was similar to yours - small dosage of FSH drugs (1. because it was the first cycle & 2. because I have had a child previously) - we got 8 eggs, half fertilised but none made it by the time of transfer.

Our second cycle was very similar, but we had a very slow embryo transferred, nothing.

They changed protocol for our 3rd & 4th cycles - got better results, but still no pregnancy.

After doing lots of research into doctors etc, I found a specialist that did a lot of testing & found similar issues to yours in regards to my tubes... they were leaking toxic fluid into my uterus that was causing the embryos to expel.

I had the surgery for my tubes done in December, and we are almost through our 5th cycle - first one since finding out about the problems with my tubes & our first one using ICSI as well.

We got much better quality embryos this time round - are due for transfer tomorrow & waiting at the moment to see how my 5 embies are doing this morning....

I just wanted to give you a little of my history so you could see that things can improve - I know how you're feeling & I feel for you sweetheart - but I promise there are many different protocols/tests/specialists that can happen for you to get better results... don't give up hope

My advice for you would to start with some acupuncture straight away on a regular basis - find a practitioner that specialises in fertility/IVF issues.
The acupuncture is excellent to improve egg quality, sperm, the lining of your uterus & implantation of the embryo.

There are extra tests you can have done for your husband with the sperm... not all specialists will do them as they're not the normal ones they can do... and they cost but you will get solid results.

Please remember there is so much they can change - and different cycles as far as the IVF goes, so take faith in all of the different options.

They will more than likely increase your FSH dose this time round, and ICSI will definately help with the fertilisation.

Ask as many questions as you need to - and this site is an amazing source for info.... with some pretty fantastic & inspiring women who have been to hell & back a few times over in reach of their dream

Theres not many left now, but I would check out the TTC journal section, & also read through the blogs from some of the lovely ladies in regards to their experiences with IVF... you'll find that you're not alone (and your situation is very common)... that will put you at ease straight away & thats the first step to carry on

My very very best wishes for your journey - please feel free to ask away if you have any more questions, there are so many of us here that can help & support you.

Lots of hugs,
Holly
xxxxx