Can I assure you that all the things you've mentioned above are normal worries and that every parent starting this journey has a million "what if this happens" moments.

It's far from smooth sailing and there is a big journey ahead, but its a massive life changing experience so the fear is completely normal. The best advice is to just try to focus on one step at a time - the next cycle etc and just work your way through your fears.

The fear of putting yourself on the line medically, emotionally and financially is massive, and there are no guarantees, but you've already made the decision to give it a red hot go. There are lots lovely ladies on BB that understand exactly what you are going through, so keep talking it through. I think sometimes we fear the worst as a defence mechanism to protect ourselves form the heart ache that comes with infertility. You are not a scaredy cat jen86 - you are a brave woman doing all you can to be a Mum - that's an admirable thing indeed