Wow congrats lea i hope all stays well !!!!!!!

Hi everybody i know i have been slack buti have been reading whats been going on. I have been doing my best to take it easy.
I had a melt down about a week ago and cried for a couple of hours! I felt like the worst person in the world , everybody has been so excited about us having baby number 7 but i have had my doubts! Which i felt awful about, but i just couldn't get excited! Don't get me wrong i would be devastated if anything happened to my little bubba , its just that it wasn't on the cards and Mitchie needs alot of time spent with him with his floppy baby syndrome ( he is getting heaps stronger now ) and i just didn't see how i could have another bub and give it all the love and time it will need plus give Mitchie all the extra time and love and physio that he needs if that makes any sense.

Of course i will be able to do it and i hope to be more excited about this bubby soon ( gosh that sounds soooo bad) its just that there is soooo much that has to be changed to fit this bub in everywhere.
We will get there and this bub will get all the love in the world its just my emotions are scrambleed atm!

Anyway sorry for the blah post but i am finding it is helping by talking it through and i really want to get excited about this bub and thats not going to happen unless i deal with my emotions first!!!
Anyway have a great weekend