I meant to say I have three girls and three boys, boys give me anyday!

Ladies Ashlen my 3 year old is in hospital, he was rushed there by ambulance early this morning, they are saying severe asthma attack but I feel it was croup because he had this a couple of weeks ago too. Mixed with asthma, I could not go as I have pheen and no pump so hubbie and my daughter had to go and its her birthday today poor kid she turns 15. OMG I am balling because the fear of him never coming back in this door and me grabbing him and hugging him is so painful I am driving myself nuts and the damn hossy will not let me know how he is is they keep saying they will get dh to ring me, ffs I am his mother. To his little face begging for help when he could not get a breath near killed me, it is the last thing I keep replaying over abnd over in my mind and I am scared stiff he will not ever come home again and that is my last memory of him and I never got one last cuddle, one last "I love you babes" nothing. K ballling again.