From reading your posts i think ive realised why I feel like this - I havnt actually gotten over the things that happened.
Those girls made my life a living hell which played a huge part in me turning out the way I have and i honestly hate them for that.
Think im just going to leave it. Im not ready to do this just yet
I got picked on badly from grade 3 though to year 12.
A few kids (from primary school) have said they're sorry. the where *kids* but highschool. i had one say she was sorry for following the "leader of the pack" and i told her i was ok with what had happened between her and I. the rest, i will always carry a grudge for. they screwed me up down and around and i see it as they where young adults, fully aweare of what they where doing and they made choices to carry on and conduct themselfs as they did.
The main one towards the end i know she's now doing her thing, but the fact she felt the need to pull me down because i had (in esseance) what she wanted (older boyfriend) makes me realise shes the type to bring you down so she can feel better, i dont need that.
Same as tafe, one girl used to bullly me until i spun it around and spat it back at her. am i proud of it? no. but i wasnt willing to suck it up and if she asked me so say sorry or baught me up on it, i'd then be bringing up what she did too.
But in short, unless they say they're sorry for their actions i'd ignore them and any attempt of contact from here on in.
I was bullied at school and even the people I would hang out with I didn't feel like real friends to the point I couldn't wait for year 12 to end. I went to my high school 10 year reunion and talked to some people but still fely very uneasy and uncomfortable around a lot and had nothing in common with most.. From growing up in small country towns was interesting to see how many were still in the same small towns and many had not been to uni and just worked where ever they could (not that I have a problem with people working in any jobs) but I did feel proud that I had moved away to go to uni and completed my nursing and then moved away and worked. I had since then finished my Mid and got married.
Some have changed some have not. A few that were in the "pretty" group I actually speak to now on FB but were not the mean girls just quiet followers IYKWIM.
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