So I am on my 2nd stim cycle we got a BFP on 1st cycle but miscarriage at 9 wks

I am on day 8 of injections tomorrow and had a BT today - they want me in on Wednesday for scan BT and possibly to get the trigger. I asked if I could do the BT and scan on Thu but the response I got makes me feel like I am so unreasonable. I start work at 6am and do a 12 hour shift so not arriving at work until 9-9.30 is alot of time to make up. Means I will not leave until 9-9.30pm. I only work on Tue and Wed this week.

I am trying so hard not to make IVF the whole focus of my life - last time I was knitting baby clothes and researching cots and prams etc and now I have put all that stuff in a box and trying to look at the whole thing as the long term (and not guaranteed) process that it really is.

Is it so unreasonable to try and fit this around the rest of my life. If I needed a test/procedure on a Sunday it would be ok to go the day before / after as the clinic is closed. If the process is flexible enough to fit in with the clinic hours and work load why are my non fertility needs not so important.

I guess it is unreasonable of me to be so mad but I dont want to tell everyone at work - its none of their business and I am running out of good excuses. Please tell me to get over it I think I need it today - perhaps it is all the hormones