Hey girls
do you ever get asked why you come on this or any other forum to do with conceiving/babies/ivf etc etc? DH, even though he is amazing, often will see me on here, and tell me to stop reading in case it upsets me or something along those lines.

I admit there have been many times, when maybe it isn't wise to go online because my head's not in the right place, but even though I have friends who've gone through IVF, I don't generally want to call them up or go around and say, 'Hey, how you doing? I feel like **** blah blah blah blah." so instead I come on here.

I made the mistake of smsing my close friend (3 kids all naturally, no issues), and saying I should've gone out with her tonight (DH working)...she asked why, I said that 'the internet was evil' and I was gonna go do some ironing and watch some tv. She referred to a previous conversation saying that I might not always understand her DH but she doesn't understand what I sometimes do to myself.

That upset me. I'd rather have had a, well if there's anything I can do...or a call if you need to comment, not a why do you do this to yourself. I do it, because I go to a place where people understand. People have been there, or are doing it, or in amongst it, or have been through something similar. You can read about others' long strived for successes and rejoice, or tear up because you've just read a heartbreaking story.

I've never, not once picked up the phone and called a friend or seen someone when I've been balling my eyes out. I've no idea what they're doing, they all have families or are pregnant, are all busy, busy people, I get that. So I come on here. It always gets me through to the other side, one way or another.

Anyway, I'm sorry for the rant, just feeling lonely, and needed to offload