Hi Ladies,

Firstly a huge huge thankyou to everyone for their support. So thanks Anyos, Wouldloveabubba, Edie, Possums, Cuddlepie, Mummy2Chloe, Dutchie, Paula, Loula, JBM, BecD and Hollybollly - you kind words and cyber hugs mean so much right now.

Toby - did you transfer? Hoping you did and sending you sticky vibes for the coming weeks.

JBM - hope you can start cycling asap and you have picked up a bit. I know those down days well so sending you some extra hugs.

Anyos - sending you extra strength, big hugs for your daughters anniversary later this week. It will be so painful but I'm here if you need to get anything out or just want a bit of support.

Possums - best of luck at the endorcrinologist and hoping you can find a way forward.

Paula - hoping for a sticky one for you!

BecD - best of luck for transfer today, hoping you have a lovely strong embie. Thinking of you and crossing my crossables.

Hi Airline - nice to 'meet' you, looking forward to getting to know you and hoping you get your BFP soon.

AFM: Things have been tough but it's expected. Had a follow up blood test today and will get the results this afternoon. Hopefully all trace of HCG is gone. I didn't realise it would hurt so much to get so close but so so far away. Again we don't know where to go from here. Each cycle we distance oursleves more, this time once transfer was done we didn't speak of it, it was like it didn't even happen. Didn't 'name' our embie, didn't talk to it, nothing. Have any of you become like this - sort of 'shut-down' - can't even bear to allow yourself to think that it might happen this time? It just feels like our whole lives together we've been fighting huge battles, first DH's cancer and now infertility - it's been 11 years of fear, stress and emotional pain. We got a letter from MIVF - they froze another 2 embies in addition to the 5 already frozen - so 7 frosties - same as last cycle. I don't think we can go through another almost year of FET after FET, I think it might break us. So taking a break for now, will make an appointment with the FS and do some more reasearch, and then see if we feel strong enough to continue. I know we will keep trying, just can't face it right now.

Thanks for listening again. Hoping you all get out of this thread and into the pregnancy ones soon. xxx