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Hi Ladies :hug:
I'm still lurking in here & thinking of you all constantly xxx
Infinity - I'm so sorry to read your news, I'm praying that you are taking the time you need to grieve & get through this. Lots of hugs your way :comfort:
Bec - EPU sounds great - a lot more positive! I have everything crossed for you that you have a great fertilisation report xxxxxxxxx
Lots of strength & hugs to everyone else :hug:
Crap fert results, only 5 fertilised. When will this crap be over!
Now we wait until Monday to make sure we have something to transfer.
:goodluck: bec all the best for tf hun i wish you all the best.
to all you wonderful ladies i to am always lurking on you all and wish you the very best ,take care and hang in there xoxoxx
Hello just been keeping up with this thread...lurking about. I recognise some names from other threads.
BECD - sorry you're feeling fed up with your fertilised no. I'll not say the dreaded ('it only takes...') line cos that winds me up!! fingers crossed you've got a good strong embie to transfer on Mon. The weekend is always hard when you've got a transfer on the Mon, hope it's going ok. I'm feeling a similar way, cos with both my first and second stim cycles I only got 5 embies in the end. I've got my EPU on Wed and ET of a blastie following Mon, so I'm one week behind you. Will see how you go on Mon.:pray:
to all the other ladies on this thread, hello, and sticky sticky vibes.
Hi Ladies,
Firstly a huge huge thankyou to everyone for their support. So thanks Anyos, Wouldloveabubba, Edie, Possums, Cuddlepie, Mummy2Chloe, Dutchie, Paula, Loula, JBM, BecD and Hollybollly - you kind words and cyber hugs mean so much right now.
Toby - did you transfer? Hoping you did and sending you sticky vibes for the coming weeks.
JBM - hope you can start cycling asap and you have picked up a bit. I know those down days well so sending you some extra hugs.
Anyos - sending you extra strength, big hugs for your daughters anniversary later this week. It will be so painful but I'm here if you need to get anything out or just want a bit of support.
Possums - best of luck at the endorcrinologist and hoping you can find a way forward.
Paula - hoping for a sticky one for you!
BecD - best of luck for transfer today, hoping you have a lovely strong embie. Thinking of you and crossing my crossables.
Hi Airline - nice to 'meet' you, looking forward to getting to know you and hoping you get your BFP soon.
AFM: Things have been tough but it's expected. Had a follow up blood test today and will get the results this afternoon. Hopefully all trace of HCG is gone. I didn't realise it would hurt so much to get so close but so so far away. Again we don't know where to go from here. Each cycle we distance oursleves more, this time once transfer was done we didn't speak of it, it was like it didn't even happen. Didn't 'name' our embie, didn't talk to it, nothing. Have any of you become like this - sort of 'shut-down' - can't even bear to allow yourself to think that it might happen this time? It just feels like our whole lives together we've been fighting huge battles, first DH's cancer and now infertility - it's been 11 years of fear, stress and emotional pain. We got a letter from MIVF - they froze another 2 embies in addition to the 5 already frozen - so 7 frosties - same as last cycle. I don't think we can go through another almost year of FET after FET, I think it might break us. So taking a break for now, will make an appointment with the FS and do some more reasearch, and then see if we feel strong enough to continue. I know we will keep trying, just can't face it right now.
Thanks for listening again. Hoping you all get out of this thread and into the pregnancy ones soon. xxx
Infinity - I completly understand shut down mode hun, I dont even get excited at the prospect of a cycle of any kind, of course I want and hope it works or I would not be doing it, however if I dont emotionally distance myself, I cannot keep cycling. During a cycle I will usually have one day, that I feel hopeful or excited, one day ! Out of the thousands of dollars and procedures, I allow myself one day, your not alone in your thoughts hun.
Bec - BOL for today, three day may be just what you need
BIG Hello's to everyone
I am going on a holiday in three days, having a stress free natural cycle (sorry), always praying for a miracle, I have a metalic taste in my mouth, and another head cold, so I am rugging up to get rid of it before our trip away
hi everyone...
Bec, best of luck...we had 3 fertilise, and two blastocysts (and one pregnancy) from that...so you never know how things will turn out
infinity- big hugs, take all the time you need...it is very hard to have been so close...i understand the 'shut-down' phase, and i imagine that when (positive thinking) i do fall pregnant again we will be in a scared shut-down for a while. It's self protection, and you have been through so much together.
wlab- have a lovely break
all the best everyone else
infinity - sending you my love, you are going through a rough time at the moment - please be kind to yourself.
wlab - sorry to hear you are not feeling well, hope the cold clears up soon for you and you have a great trip
AFM - Had transfer today, 2 embies were transferred, both grade one (the best grading), one was 6 cells, the other was 9 cells so I am happy with that. There is one other embryo left that they are trying to grow to blast to freeze, but not counting on it. Now have to wait for beta on 2 November.
Bec, fingers crossed! :pray:
Keeping everything crossed for you Bec. Those do sound like some great embryos!
Big hello to everyone else. Not much to post but i have been keeping updated on you all.
Fingers tightly crossed BecD and sending you many :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy:
infinity- big ((hugs)) to you
Hello to everyone else!
WLB - thanks, you make perfect sense and that's exactly how I feel. I understand the 1 day thing, sometimes it's not even a whole day! Have a fabulous time away - you deserve a great break. Hope the cold goes away before you leave. xx
Possums - self preservation is exactly what it is. I wish you didn't know exactly how I feel but it is a great help that you do understand iykwim?
BecD - excellent news! Your embies sound terrific. Heaps of sticky vibes and best of luck for the hard wait ahead. Crossing everything that this is it for you. Pop in an let us know how you're going. Looking forward to hearing great news on 2 November. You can do this!!
Hello to everyone else. Huge hugs right back at you all!
This is the 4th time ive tried to post damn it!
I had personals to all 2.
Infinity - am thinking of you
BECD - sounds good!
Thanks to everyonewho wished me all the best with the transfer last tues.
not trying to jinks myself or get too excited but i POAS at 4 pm and it had 2 lines. (1 was darker than the other) :dance:BT is tomorrow morn at 7am! Gee I hope it sticks. TMI coming up..... I went to the toilet this morn or i think it was last nite and strained to go (for long session) Ive had this sharp pain on and off all day. Not sure if it coz i strained or it is the embi playing down there or something is wrong. (i suffer from anxiety so get worried about everything - im so scared i will lose the little one) aHHHHHHHHHH Im going to do the shopping now and will buy prune juice - hope that sorts me out as I do have a bit of trouble in that department and dont want to use over the counter stuff if im really UTD!!!!!!!
Well I will be back tomorrow to tell you all about the B/t.
Best of luck ladies. take care of yourselves!!!!!!!!
omg omg omg toby thats brilliant! how did you bt go today! :D :D :D
Toby, i think congrats are in order! sending you all the very best for today
Bec always thinking of you too in this dreaded TWW hope it is going fast for you.
Sending all a big hug, life is slowly getting back to normal, the added stresses at work are not helping.
have FS appointment on 2/11 to see what we will be doing next and i hope we can get another EPU in before then, had a call from MIVF for PGD, the nurse asked me in total how many embies have you TFed? my answer 23 transfered in 14 cycles! yikes it really scared me. This really is our last cycle (for now) i am hopping we can start the process of surrogracy towards the end of next year if we are not successful.
Am trying to stay away from bb a little just to get my head space right again so sorry if i have been absent, i do think of you all and how i find so much inspriation from each and every one of you. through all this pain you develop a beautiful gift, that of empathy and courage. if you dont mind i may hold your hands from afar as we walk this journey together.
Bec I feel your pain. I haven't experienced the exact same thing but I do know what it's like to go through all the steps to only end in heartache. My first IVF cycle went better than we expected. They retrieved 24 eggs, 16 were fertilized, we froze 7 day three's and 2 blasties. We transfered one high quality blastie which split resulting in a identical twin conception. At 24 weeks I went into preterm labor, my boys fought to stay with us after coming into the world but just couldn't do it. It was hard leaving the hospital empty handed. We are currently in our first FET cycle. I'm more nervous on receiving a BFP than a BFN. For obvious reasons. Oh and it turns out my cervix is incompetent and I have a blood clotting disorder. So now I have been marked as high risk. Next pregnancy they will be stitching my cervix between week 14&16 to ensure I pass the second trimester.
We all need to stay strong and hopeful that one day soon we all will have that BFP and be able to take them home.
Lots of love and baby dust to all.
toby congratulations honey, hope all went perfectly with the bt xxxx
Infinity, thank you for your kind words lovey, :hug: I hope you're travelling well, I know exactly what you mean about distancing yourself from it all.
BecD :pray: that you get your miracle xxxx
Loula am sending you love, strength and hope, take care of yourself & let us know how you're travelling.
love & hugs to everyone else
AFM, haven't had the best of weeks but have felt less overwhelmed by the sorrow. My darling angel left us 4 years ago tommorow and since then we've been on such an incredible journey. Thank you all for your love & support, it means so much to me xxx
anyos- :comfort: thinking of you today too hunni, I can't imagine how hard this day must be for you. Take care :hug:
toby- yahoo for 2 lines :happyforyou: hoping your BT results are nice and high :crossfingers:.
BecD- hoping you TWW is going well, sending you some very sticky :stickyvibesgirl:
:hello: to infinity, WLAB, Grayson, Loula, toby, Paula, Possums, airline, hope your all well :bluedust: :pink-babydust: to you all.