Long Term Assisted Conception - 2009 #4

hey Infinity, I know the wait is hard and especially since you have a babyshower this sunday, but hang in there! Yes, it does take me forever to take ALL the supplements, thank god I work from home :) Will be thinking of you on Sunday xxxx

hope everyone else is well xx

AFM it a hard month for us, our daughters birthday/anniversary is coming up in two weeks, she would have been turning four and my heart still aches for her. So I'm not thinking about pregnancy, ovulation, temps etc, a little time off is definitely called for.

infinity when are you due to test? How are you feeling at the moment?

anyos so sorry to hear about your daughter. I bet this month will forever hold a very special place in your heart. :hug: Enjoy your time off.

Dr called me late last night to let me know that the results from the endometrial biopsy were all normal so all looking good. My babys 9 month rental is all clean and healthy now just have to hope it wants to move in. Please bubby, move in and make yourself at home for 9 months :D

Hi everyone,

Edie - thank-you so much for dropping in just to send me some support. I really appreciate it and you must be an amazingly compassionate caring woman to do such a thing for someone you don't even know. So thanks again, your words made me cry but in a good way. I'm trying to be more positive and you've given me a bit of hope back.

Anyos, happy birthday to your beautiful precious angel. I cannot even imagine your pain right now. Sending you much strength to get through this month. xxx

Paula - my BT is Wednesday but I'll test Monday I think. I hope your bubby hears your womb for rent add and moves on in! "Please Paula's bubby, the inspection report is all clear and just waiting for you to move on in, there's an awesome Mummy bonus at the end of the 9 month period as extra incentive!"

AFM: been very busy today and trying not to think about things too much. Feeling a little more hopeful after all the wonderful support.

Much love to everyone else. Have a great weekend. xxx

Hi Infinity,

Just dropping in to send you some :stickyvibesgirl:

Also have question for a friend is anyone here from Adelaide? Do you know a good clinic there? She doesn't like Flinders much where she had a treatment done.

Thanks heaps,

Sara

Hi everyone

infinity- Glad to hear your feeling a lil' brighter, very best of luck for testing monday. Sending you some of the stickiest sticky vibes too.

Paula- Glad to hear you have the all clear, that's always a relief. Wishing you the best.

anyos- So very sorry about your daughter, so heartbreaking. A break sounds like a good idea, I hope you are able to do something special with DH for her anniversary. I'm thinking of you.

Hello to everyone else reading and lurking :hello:

Dutchie, Paula, Infinity, thank you for your kind words :hug:

Infinity, how are you going? Best of luck for today xxx

Hello to everyone else, sending lots of :bluedust: to you all xxx

Selfish post coming up..........

POAS this morning - after about 3 minutes it was stark white next to the control line, two more minutes and there is the faintest of faint lines there. So faint you can barely see it, in fact I'm not sure if it's sort of a reflection of the control line or some weird evaporation line. Not sure what to think. You can barely see it at arms length. I've completely torn the test apart and pulled the testing stip out!

Not holding out too much hope but it has ignited a small spark. I don't think I can function for the next two days!!!!

Please please please universe let this be the start of something wonderful.

Hi Ladies.

Infinity - did you get a bt today? im really hoping you got a BFP
anyos - thinking of you at this time
Edie - thanks for your post. I need reminding that thourghts have nothing to do with it
paula- great to hear about your results
cp - im sorry to hear there was no BFP this month

Hello everyone else!!!

AFM - o-ed day 21 transfer (5 day blast) tomorrow. Not very positive about it at all as I usually o day 18/19 and get the witch 9/10 days later. I told the FS & nurse this information-the fs did not believe me (apparently everyone o on day 14 - go figure) and the nurse told me today that we should just wait and see. If my calculations are correct - AF should show up this weekend by the latest! So is there time for the blasty to stick? The nurse i spoke to last week said yes there was time to stick.

Anyone know of any success stories or been in the same situation?

I'm so damn axious - i took today off. Im also worried the blasty wont survive the thaw (i only have 2 left) the nurse said the thaw success rate was 80-90% which made me feel a bit more better.

thanks for reading

woohoo Infinity sounding so promising xx Best wishes for the next two days hun

Hi Infinity

I am so glad I could help. I have been there too - being so sure of the absolute worst - and being wrong. Woo hoo what a day that was. My whole world expanded and I realized it wasn't going to be limited by my fears.

I am rooting for you girl, I can't wait to hear more about your double line. You can do this - it doesn't matter if it gets rough, you can do it. You go girl.

x Edie

Anyos I am sorry for your loss - it must be a painful time to manage. My heart goes out to you. I will send some cyber-love. Will you accept it from a virtual cyber stranger? xxxxxx

Toby, I am sure your blasty will survive the thaw. It will probably get a buzz out of getting warm. Lots of luck for Toby's brave blasty.

AFM I am currently down-regulating and have been on the pill for three weeks. Uch. I feel achey. Other than that, not too bad. Amazing that a whole year has gone by and I am still doing ivf. How did that happen? Nothing could have prepared me...and yet I am getting on with things, creative work, exercise, looking after our dogs, being with friends...it's all ok. EPU scheduled for around the 30th of October.

x Edie

Toby, best of luck for transfer today, hoping your blasty survived the thaw and you transfer with no problems. There is definately time for your blasty to stick, Good luck and I'll be crossing everything for you.

Loula - thanks for the wishes - much appreciated

Edie - thanks again. I hope I can do this too but things are not looking good. I am the same as you - couldn't quite beleive that we'd been doing IVF for over a year - time flies even when you aren;t having any fun. You sound like you are doing so well. looking forward to hearing about your progress.

AFM: things are not looking good. POAS again this morning and there is still a second line but still faint - not as faint as yesterday but not really dark enough. And I'm spotting or something - TMI but it's browny red and mucusy - very much like the normal start of my AF. Am also cramping and have a bad lower back ache. Have not told DH about the possible positive tests or the spotting/bleeding. It breaks my heart to get his hopes up if only to be let down again - can't do it just yet. BT is tomorrow so I'll wait it out. Am expecting that maybe this is a chemical pregnancy.

Hello to everyone else, hope all is well.

Toby & Edie, thank you for your lovely words. I'm so grateful to have an amazing group of virtual friends here, it means so much to me xxxx

Infinity, :hug: Am praying for you lovey and I hope its just implantation spotting. Unfortunately sometimes the symptoms for AF & pregnancy are so similar its almost impossible to tell the difference. Look after yourself, we're all thinking of you xxxx

Toby, best of luck today, will be thinking of you.

Dutchie, how are you going?

AFM have been busy with work and family. Due to O this week and will be trying the old-fashioned way!

Dutchie - How did you go with MT ?

Anyos - BOL with the ol' fashioned way

Infinity - You are certainly on a roller coaster, if I where you, I would have gone to a GP and had a Beta hcg at the first sign of two lines, then you would of had a number to compare it too, two days later with the clinics Beta, it just moves the process along a bit. Can you tell I am impatient !!!
BOL, with tommorow's BT, I hope the universe listenes to you

Edie - I know what you mean about the time flying

Loula - Thinking of u hun, and looking forward to a chat

Bulliej, Sara, CPie, Ms Pink - my ol' friends, miss our chats, and hope you are all well, I know where your at, Im just taking day by day myself, trying my best not to think abour\t ttc

Anyos I am glad we could help in any small way at all. It sounds like you are getting on with things - distraction seems to be the best way to deal with this process - don't you think? I mean I have done everything - prayed fervently, focused on it, been positive, been negative, done creative visualizations, written letters to God, not focused on it, been angry, been indignant, begged and bargained - I am not sure what difference any of it makes. I have come to think that if I just get on with life, enjoy myself, do what I have to do - gonal, multi-vits, acupuncture, whatever, but no extra-mileage in my mind - it will work just as well. I feel positive. Mostly because I am focusing on my work and just not going there - know what I mean?

Infinity, hang in. You will get there, you will have another baby. You are in the most agonising bit but it will pass and you will reach your goal. I am sorry about the mixed messages, AF, cramps etc the only solution is to wait which brings me back to distraction. Is there anything else you can do? Anything at all, retail therapy, movies, mates, a massage - anything at all. Whatever works - even if its watching re-runs of Sex and the City. Go for it.

Good luck hun x Edie

infinity..hang in there , it's such an up and down time of emotions

anyos...sending you all the very best, during what must be a really hard time. good luck with this cycle!

everyone else, I know I am not really chatting on here much at the moment, but I do check in from time to time to check on you all and I so hope for more BFPs soon and for these difficult paths you are on to finally bring the best reward ...a healthy baby of your own to love. Saying a big hello to you all.

afm- managing the Graves disease /hyperthyroidism with medication and feeling better, weekly blood tests while i try and balance the medication etc. Off to see an endocrinologist in a couple of weeks to map out the next step fertility wise (cant take this medication i am on in pregnancy or ttc)...and to talk about options, other medication, surgery etc. So we are on an enforced complete TTC break, which is why i am not on here so much at the moment. We are hoping we can resume naturally trying in coming months, or in the new year...and if no luck by may/june will resume IVF, well that's the current idea anyway, depending on the outcome from the endocrinologist etc.

Toby remain positive. Im sure your blasty will thaw just fine. Let us know how you go.

Edie love your positive/get on with things attitude. I have been feeling the exact same way lately. I too feel like i have tried everything (physically, mentally, spiritually, medically, etc. etc.) and have decided to just get on with things and stop focusing so much on the little things, live my life. Our day will come, and very soon :D

Anyos have fun trying the old fashioned way ;). I hear so many stories of people falling pregnant naturally after going through soooo much assisted conception that anything is possible. Best of luck!

Possums so good to hear from you. Great news that your feeling well with the medication etc.

Infinity have everything crossed for your BT tomorrow :crossfingers:

As for me, not much happening. In for BT and U/S on Friday and i guess we will go from there.

Hi Paula, I am glad you agree with me. I find that when I am distracted from ivf and ttc for a decent period of time - when I return to it I have a healthier more positive perspective. But when I chew over it day in day out my perspective warps and I walk around all day looking up at the clouds going 'Why, Lord? Why?????!!!!" and it gets me nowhere. Some things just ARE - there aren't mysterious explanations because things just are the way the way they are. Sorry for all the philosophising ladies...It sound slike you have been through your fair share Paula, for someone of such tender years he....he...I bet you get sick of hearing how young you are in ivf world. A struggle is a struggle at any age, ha? But you sound like you are doing great. We have gained much strength and experience from all this, my (new) friend.

Possums I am sorry you are having to deal with Grave's disease but I am glad you have had it diagnosed and now you can what you need to do to treat it. It's good you have a plan for next year so you can launch in again and make your dreams come true.

Infinity? Are you ok hunny? Its all going to work out, no matter what. I hope and pray this is your cycle. But it will be ok and you will have your bubba, just hang in xxxx I am sorry it's tough. Big hugs from me in Melbourne. Hey, you are too! Wonder if we go to the same clinic...

Anyos, enjoy the old-fashioned way. Paula is totally right, absolutely anything is possible. That's why this game is such a tricky one - miracles happen every day, on either side of those darn bfn's. We have every reason to be hopeful and positive.

Ever since ivf started the old fashioned way feels different for us - as if there is tension in my body that wasn't there before. Hmmm. It's still great with my beloved, but I can notice the difference.. anyone else get that?

xxxx Edie