Hi Guys,
I was just writing such a long reply and it disappeared. If it gets posted, half formed thoughts so I will rewrite it.

Am getting together 3 friends next week, 2 LTTTC now both preg, and one newbie to IVF, and trying to cut her journey short and help mine too. Will write up anything else useful I find after that.

Thanks all for you replies, very inspiring.

I am starting 3rd Stim in Feb, antagonist this time, with low dose aspirin. Although am seeing a different FS next week who does the colorado protocol for another opinion. Unfortunately seeems when you swap FS you just start again. I don't think mine even read my file, as had OHSS (dreadful) last stim. I respond very well to drugs and he gave me huge dose due to my age I suspect, I wondered why is was so high but didn't question it, derrrrrr. despite this i like him and will just keep coaching him on what we are goin to do for the moment. he also has sense of humour and balanced view.

Got to say that not doing the down reg is sooooo much better, only 2 weeks of drugs so you can almost get on with your life. my bestie always had to do the down reg, so depends on what you are dealing with.

Also everybody's issues are different so you can't expect FS to be an expert in all, so you just have to do your own research etc, I only just realised this after the last one. I seem to need a reproductive endocrinoligist/ immunologist, who specialises in older womeon doing IVF. The only one who might fit the bill that I have seen so far is Dr Sacks, but he is in Sydney. Also my FS is not convinced that what Sacks does makes a difference.

I found the accupunture very helpful, went from BFN to BFP after doing it. Still sure there is something else going on.

so much blurting out.....