Long Term Assisted Conception - 2009

[MsPink]

BDY - just wanted to say - vent away. Sadly..we all feel the same way. It's NOT fair, not at all. It is a lottery with lives and so very cruel.
Please know you are not the only one.. I am jealous of all the strangers with prams I see, I am jealous if people who get PG by accident, with IUI and IVF. It tears me up inside. I am constantly on borderline tears and know i am near the end. I don't even have a choice about how long I continue.
You are not alone sweetie and don't feel guilty for how you're feeling.
We are all here for that very reason... and when you need to vent or need the support - we are all here for you..It may not make you feel better..but at least you know there are many many others out there suffering alongside you..
I hope and pray this is your last TWW and you get the good news you deserve..

[Sara69]

BDT: just wanted to send you a

Sara

[Loula]

actually probably not a good idea to post this. I am going to edit this because If I do know this member I don't want to ruin her anonymity on the site. I wasn't sure anyway. so sorry if I caused any embarrassment.

oooOOOooo Jbub

i just want to know if it is me that you think you know? i have a lot of stalkers on here and i know a few of then, i dont know if they know that i know TBH but i talk about it all the time - i guess i can count 3 people, that i dont really want to 'know' stuff but know that they come in here and have a look!

[Loula]

BDT i hear what you are saying and i thank you for saying it, it is hard to show thoese emotions as you think that it is mean or wrong of you in some way to express that what you are truely feeling.

After being on BB for what seems like such a long time now even all my LTer friends from 2006 have now all fallen pg or had babies, some even on their second!(im sorry to thoese still travelling this journey with me).

It makes me sad even though i know that the longing is still the same. and i know that they once knew how i felt but dont really know that feeling anymore (IMO) and im sure that i will go through that transittion too. (i pray and hope for it every day) Its not that i am unhappy that others are having success, i just wallow in my own pitty for it not happening for me and my DH.

Totally understand. xx

[Sara69]

Jbub when you have 30 posts or so you can send a private message to the member and ask her personally without posting it for everyone to see.

Loula and Lulu just sending some to both of you.

Sara

[Cuddlepie]

BDT, like others said, thanks for putting out this post and sadly there are so many us out here feeling exactly the same. My IVF nurse and APist were both pregnant had maternity leave and one is already back to work during the course of my pursuit, it is when you see these things, you realized the amount of time has gone by yet success still hasn't shown its face. It is these moment your doubt just screaming at you that how long I am going to wait. It feels like not one but a few life time already...

I had my anger, frustrations and all sort of other emotions in the whole world, now I think I am so exhausted and has just recently settled with numb aTM, not that is good...

I turely hope that this cycle will be the one for you and I also pray all of us will graduate this thread in the very near future.

Best of luck Lulu for this upcoming cycle...

Loula and Sara, big hugs to you both too...

[MsPink]

Awwwwww u girls are so huggable...thanks guys...love you all back!!

Well - just shot up with first FSH this cycle and have taken the scary Prednisone..here's to an angry, fat, fat-faced month ahead... bet you are all glad u can avoid me in real life huh..??

[Loula]

bet you are all glad u can avoid me in real life huh..??

Never hun. x good to hear progress.

[Sara69]

Not at all Lulu - wishing you with this cycle

Sara

[Bengal]

Hello my loverlies

Hope everyone is well today..

MsPink - I am going to be having Prog Pess for the first time this cycle, instead of crinone, do they give you side effects, like the ones you described ???

Also, pick up was yesterday (15 eggs) and I am home again from work, wobbling around like an elderly lady, with umcomfy pains etc, did you guys feel out out action after EPU's, my first was a breeze, but these last two have been quite painful, pain into your bottom, and lower abdo pains etc???

Thanks ladies

[Cuddlepie]

bet you are all glad u can avoid me in real life huh..??

Lulu, seriously, would love to catch up sometime and meet you in RL... maybe next month, cause I am having a 'big-tummy' month, not for the right reason though....

We are belly buddies again, I started my FSH on Monday so a couple of days ahead of you, you have to tell me how painful Organultran is, I am predicting that will start over the weekend if everything goes well...

WLAB, great results, I think the number of eggs picked up also affect the level of discomfort, like the more eggs, more pokings...hope you soon will recover from this. Let us know how fert report goes...I never had any side effect from either crinone or prog pessaries, I guess a little crampy that is all...hope you won't get any...

to Loula, Sara

[MsPink]

WLB - you did great mate - what an eggs-ellent haul - am very jealous. How did fertilization go?? I hope well sweetie.
Am not surprised you are sore after 15 eggies. Some panadol should do the trick. But more pain after 2-3days - you must call your doc incase of OHSS.
Progesterone pessaries dont give me any side effects - except that I hate them. Like putting up a soft waxy candle that slowy comes out - YUK!! and 2x a day means it messes with my exercise in the morning as I have to put it in and go back to bed for 30mins. Not that I am a walking junkie - but trying to lose weight. Am going to ask for Pregnyl needles again this time methinks.

Sara & Lou - thanks guys..hope you're both doing ok.

CP - my cycle buddy... deja-vu huh. Lets hope it's all different this time. and yes..love to meet up one day.
OK.. here's what to do with the Orgal. u put in into the top of your thigh. Squeeze a chunk of fat (I have plenty to share if u need some). The get the needle and wiggle the needle as you start to put it into the skin. The actual needle is thicker then what you are used to and therefore hurts more. I swear - if u do the 'wiggle' technique (I should have it patented) it hurts soooo much less. Ask Bel - she found a huge difference.
Also - many people (incl me) get a red, very itchy circle that lasts for an hour or 2.. not an allergic reaction - just how it is. You will do great..

BDT - how u feeling hun?

Sam - are u ok - haven't seen u in a while..

[Sara69]

Hi CP,

Don't worry too much about the Orgalutran, found it was similar to the SIVF needles for Lucrin - only thing to remember is that there are airbubbles in it - DO NOT worry about them - when I did it for the first time I tried to get them out and lost about half a dosage doing this.

While all was fine in the end I later heard from another girls the same had happened to her, the nurse said not to worry about the airbubbles and to just put it in.

Lulu with your cycle

BDT: Keeping fingers crossed for your BT on Sunday

Loula: Hope you're well.

WTH: Hi hun, just replied to you in the other thread - wishing lots of luck for ET, hopefully you get a few frosties.

Awaiting AF early next week, please keep fingers crossed for me that FSH is better this time.

Sara

[Cuddlepie]

Thanks Lulu and Sara for sharing the peals of wisdom... Will let you know how I go...about the mean-testing safety net, I start to feel the pressure like have to succeed this cycle, gee,like we all need that pressure on top of everything else! I start to get a bit angry of they even think of discussing this on the table....crap!

[Possums]

I don't really belong in this thread, but I am just popping in to say hello to you all and wish you the very best with your cycles and I just pray that a BFP for you all is just around the corner!

BDT- your feelings seem so normal to me!! big hugs

[MsPink]

Lovely Possums...you are welcome to be here anytime...
How are you doing sweetie??

[Samandpoppy]

Hi All you loverlies

Ms Pink and Loula - sending you my best fairy dust, know the feeling.

WLB - great you got a good haul. Good luck. If you still having symptoms, ring nurses as you may have a little OHSS.

Everyone else - keep up the good work, best of luck to you all.

Afm - am waiting to ovulate to have FET. Cycle a bit late due to OHSS last time. Have just taken my self back to Landmark course to get some strength for myself around doing this next FET and also around making a choice to stop if need be. Working so far! Feeling pretty good.

[MsPink]

Sam - so glad you're doing better and happy you're going to soon do an FET - all the best hun.

WLB - where u at woman?? How did fertilization go?? How are you feeling?? When is transfer?? I need all these questions answered and more....