Megan, I just want to offer hugs... I wish I could go and help you clean up and hug you in person. :hugs:
Hopefully things will look brighter soon.
BW
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Megan, I just want to offer hugs... I wish I could go and help you clean up and hug you in person. :hugs:
Hopefully things will look brighter soon.
BW
Thanks BW :) I'm making progress cleaning....but it's a slow process!! DH owes me big time when he gets home.
I just really hate feeling so flat and just blah. It seems that every time I do any kind of cycle this is how I feel regardless of whether it's medicated or not. I suppose all the extra pressure hasn't helped this week, and then DH telling his mother that we had transfer and her asking me last night if I had got my period yet?! What the? Like I need her at me as well. One way or the other, it will all be over this week.
BW, I hope you get some kind of relief for AF soon. 16 days is a long time to be putting up with that.
Megan - sounds like you've had a shocker this week - hoping everything will improve for you soon. i'd be doing the clean up now, and making DH do it after the visitors have been (although he knows i'm in a bad way at the moment, so i don't know that he'd be brave enough to run out and play golf if we had visitors on the way!)
BW - i can't believe you're having MORE bleeding issues. it just seems to follow you - stim cycle = bleeding issues! that's just wrong and soooooooooo not fair! there are times when, even though i know it reduces our chances of getting pg naturally, i'm so glad i don't have a cycle! i used to bleed for up to six weeks when AF finally showed, so she's definitely not missed! actually, up until we lost our first angel i had that sort of AF - not since - maybe it made a change... not sure (only just realised this!)
Me - well, i feel like crap to put it bluntly. Mersyndol has become my new best friend. appears that i've somehow managed to strain all the muscles in my back and neck, and all down one leg. i think it's from having a dodgy ankle that started giving me grief when the weather turned cold - i was over compensating for it and have thrown my whole body out of whack! not fun (but i recall something similar happened last year, so i know i should have expected it - this time it's just worse!). have had a headache at varying degrees of severity for about the same amount of time that AF has been visiting BW, so i'm pretty miserable. have been to the chiro a couple of times this past week, and am on the improve slowly - but there's still a long way to go. gonna have to organise a massage i think - DH tries to help, but he can only do the relaxing massage - i need the "screaming in pain but i put up with it" deep tissue massage to get things in order again. a day or two of tenderness from that is better than a two week headache! have only just struggled out of bed this morning - have spent all day yesterday, half the night last night, and probably most of today - cooking. have got 15 meals ready to freeze for DH from yesterday, and two slow cookers full of soup that cooked over night that need to be divided up. today will be spag bol and vegie bake cook up so we can freeze it. have found myself eating pretty ordinarily lately and i know it's not good, so we've gone nuts making stuff so that Dh has food to take and heat on the side of the road - and so that i can just grab stuff out of the freezer in the morning, and know i can reheat it after work and not worry about it. everything is jam packed with fresh vegies so it's delish! i figure once this next FET works, i'll need lots of nutritious food, but will be too tired after work to bother, so i'm getting us in the habit of making the most of our days off to cook up a storm!
Hey Everyone :D
Just popping in - wow, it must be the day for it... this morning I could have easily murdered my DH at least 3 times over :rolleyes:
Megan, BW & BG - Hoping you guys are doing better as the day progresses!
So yesterday I had some acupuncture and my lady is a little concerned... it seems that my c/s scar has gone a little numb again, and she is finding it a little tough to get the needles in - when I was seeing Antonia, the scar had full feeling and the needles were sliding in.... she wants me to start seeing Antonia on a regular basis again - she honestly believes that Antonia is an exceptional healer and that its only going to be to my advantage.
The only reason we stopped seeing her was really because shes so far away - and add the $$$ for her herbs, tonic, sessions with flights, accomodation and time off work to go to Melbourne... well thats why! :rolleyes:
Am going to look into seeing her again though - I trust what my therapist here says, and I WAS feeling incredible when I was on her stuff.. so here we go again!!
Lou has offered a bed whenever I want to come down, though, so thats going to help a lot too ;)
Otherwise, my body is doing everything else right - smack bang in the middle of my cycle and my temps are where they should be, EWCM is perfect, etc etc... my body is so predictable, yet it just can't get the last part right :(
We'll press on- as soon as the shop is open and running, we're moving full steam ahead with Dr S and the next cycle... meanwhile its CD 15 today so I'll be heading down to Sydney on Fri for my last BT that I need to have on CD 21... thats come up fast so at least things aren't taking aaaages...
Hope everyone has a good weekend... there's a wine tasting nearby this afternoon, Luke is at a sleepover, so I've decided I'm heading down there to try and buy - here's hoping a nice evening with a good bottle of red and Luke away for the night will put DH and I in the mood to help my body do what it needs to on CD15!!!! ;)
Well, here's hoping so anyway! The stress DH has been 'offloading' this morning I might just drink the bottle by myself and go to bed in my own!!:lol:
Hope everyone is well xxx
Hi ladies
There must be something going on today... I woke up with the worst headeache, a sore threat and AF! And everything in the kitchen at breakfast made me feel nauseas! And I am so far behind in my study that I feel guilty now for not having bounced out of bed, got the cleaning done and be already several hours into my study. Talk about the pressure we put on ourselves!
Sorry I haven't been around much. DF has been away for work for so long now but hopefully he will be back tomorrow afternoon and I have taken Monday off work so we can have a day together, although it looks like I will end up studying! And work has been absolute cr@p. I had to have a long talk with my boss on Thursday when he dumped on me on Wednesday about being late with a project. Problem is he didn't give me any deadline and I am working on a top priority project for another boss so I explained calmly to him that having 2 bosses is not easy and that I can't have 2 number one priorities. I got a lot of things off my chest which was good rather than me stewing over them and I was honest in telling him that if things don't change I will be leaving. Of course he was quick to tell me how valuable I am etc etc but I can't continue with this situation. I spent most of Wednesday and Thursday alternating between wanting to rip people's heads off and wanting to collapse in a ball of tears at the drop of a hat. Luckily I managed to get some stress relief spray from the chemist that seemed to help but this is all due to PMT. What am I going to be like back on another cycle? Anyway, one day at a time. Time for some personals...
Shannon - OMG! That is just absolutely awesome news. Congratulations! I hope your b/t results show that your levels are continuing to rise.
Megan and Smartie -congrats on your transfers and good luck with your TWW. I hope you don't got too crazy! Fingers crossed for both of you!
BW- what a hassle with the bleeding... if it's not one thing it's the next isn't it? Hopefully your medication will get you back on track and I am relieved to hear that you are staying with David and NGF. Hopefully we will be seeing them next month!
Holly - that sounds like sound advice from your acupuncturist; it's not good timing for you though with the new business. If we were still in Melbourne you could have stayed with us as well, but not many people have reasons to come to Canberra. Hopefully things will look up for you and your DH with the new business etc.
BG - you are SO super organised. I was so slack this week that I ordered lite and easy meals while DF was away. While they were convenient they lacked a decent amount of fresh veges IMO so I don't think I will be doing that again soon. Your way sounds so much more appetising but I don't think we have the freezer space! Sorry to hear about your ankle/neck problem. Massage sounds like the way to go - that is the only thing that helps me when I get to that point as well, even though my chiro is amazing! Time to treat yourself and then maybe a nice warm bath tonight. Maybe even let your DH in if he is behaving properly? ;)
PP, Melbel, Tigerlinda - a big hi. I am not sure where you ladies are up to, but hope you are having a great weekend!
Take care all and talk soon.
Cherylxx
BG have you been reading my live journal again? I had a big ranty vent in there the other day about how my body freaks out with stim cycles - bleeding before hand and OHSS afterwards.
Chez, I hope work sorts itself out and that you can get started with IVF real soon. I know I have my moments where I yell and scream and rant about David, but I do know that he's just what I need in a doctor and he's so unique. Not sure I'd find that anywhere else.
Holly, I'd be back on the plane to Melbourne as well with what you've experienced!
Megan, I hope your day is looking up a bit and that you've at least been able to relax enough to enjoy the visitors. Has DH survived? I know mine would be a bit ragged around the edges by now if he'd run out leaving me to clean up alone.
Still pretty drained and exhausted here. Starting to get stressy about the financial situation with regards to this current cycle, but DH assures me that all will be well. I just know that we'll need to break for a few months to save up if this one doesn't work. Bleeding is now back to just spotting... I'm hoping that it will stop completely in the next day or so if I keep up with the cyklokapron. It's going to be impossible to pick a CD1 for this cycle... I do wonder how the nurses will deal with that!
BW
BW - haven't checked that journal for a bit =- might have to pop over there for a squizzy now...
Chez - hope you have a great time with your DH being home tomorrow. mine got home at some ungodly hour yesterday morning and is leaving again at some ungodly hour tomorrow morning. i love him to bits - but the disturbed sleep is starting to do my head in!
cook up nearly done. have now dished the soup into meals - at last count we had
3 creamy chicken curries, 2 beef and red wine casseroles, 5 garlic and herb lamb, 5 chow mein, 8 chicken and corn soup, 9 vegie soup (plus seven left from last weekend), and a slow cooker full of spag bol on the go (which will be at least 8 more meals). about to go out for a little while (apparently - will depend on whether i want to go or not) - when we get home we'll do up a vegie bake thingy that DH can heat by the side of the road or i can chuck in the oven - lots and lotsa vegies in that one. yum!
i'm beginning to think this is the way to work - one or two days of cooking, and then freeze it all - and at least i know it's not TOO hard to do when i'm utd and getting organised for being a new mummy!
hi all will be back later for personals
BG - would love the recipe for creamy chicken curry
yum all those meals sound so so yummy
lou - it's easy - go to the supermarket, find the slow cooker recipe bases (in amongst all the other recipe bases) - there is a "mild chicken curry". i think it has a kilo of chicken, couple of spuds, coconut milk - and whack it in the slow cooker
i never said i worked hard at this cook up!
BG, I'm almost inspired enough to get off my bum and do some cooking like that myself. I had a bit of a slip up in terms of diet last night that is making me think I really need to do something like that so that when I'm exhausted I still end up eating properly rather than going for the easy options. Why does all the quick to prepare stuff mainly consist of carbs?
BW
BG - The cook up is inspriational I would like to say I will try it tomorrow most probably won't though lots of yummy food there.
Megan - Hope you are feeling a little better and work and MIl leave you alone this week
Chez - Enjoy your day with DP
:hello: PP BW Holly and anyone else I have missed I am sleepy today :)
Me: We start sniffing on the long cycle on Thursday and my office should be free of plasters painters and tradies and ready to open Thursday too. So big and exciting week ahead for me. And if I can escape DH's cold that would be great :p
BW - as much as i'm exhausted now, i will still kick on and finish what i started - and hopefully doing this NOW, i can do a bit of cooking each weekend to keep the freezer stocked so i don't have to do a massive cook up like this again. one or two dishes a week (in big quantities) should keep us ahead of the ball game. am about to go and divide the pasta sauce into two dishes and then add pasta - that's about the only thing that will be heavy on the carbs.... am looking forward to chowing down on so many of these things cos they're made from vegies from our garden! not sure where pumpkin rates on the GI tables - might have to look. i've supplemented lots of spud with sweet spud which is supposedly better - just not sure about pumpkin (but have to use it - have HEAPS!!). i think the rest would be pretty good for you with the "david diet"! lol
sorry to disappoint but i believe pumpkin and parsnip (both my fav) are high on the GI scale - but its the combination you eat it with that counts!
my problem with cooking is i don't use any pre made things all fresh ingredients - nothing processed!!no jars, sauces, no tinned food!!so it can make it a little hard when making quick meals!!
pp - when cooking primarily for me, i don't use prepackaged stuff - but to create variety for DH when he's away, we thought we'd try some prepackaged things - and if they worked, we'd locate a similar "from scratch" recipe later
the spag sauce is home made - from the mass of tomato's from our garden. the chow mein was made from scratch. soup ALL from scratch (including all the stock) - and the vegie bake i'll be making soon will be too...
Hmm I'm firmly a pre-packaged sort of cook. I get home at 6.15pm so if I can't throw something together in 15-20 mins, it won't work for us. If I have a day off, I'm more leisurely about it and may make something from scratch, but I would die without ready-to-use pasta and simmer sauces and marinades. :P
Ouch! The GI of pumpkin comes in at 75. Scary. Pumpkin is now completely off the menu here! Sweet potato comes in at around 45. Pumpkin has a low glycemic load, however (4.3), which means that it doesn't have a lot of sugar in it to start with, but what is there will act quickly on blood sugars. It's a very similar case to watermelon, (GI of 72, GL of 4.3). For most people, it would be perfectly ok to eat pumpkin and watermelon and simlar foods. But I'm going with the instructions from my doctor who put me on the diet to start with. Watermelon is specifically banned, as are bananas, rockmelon (for other reasons, too!) and most tropical fruit. I'm guessing that the severity of my insulin resistance means that even a little bit of stuff with a rapid impact on my blood sugar levels is bad news. Sweet potato comes in with a GI of 44.
BW
ive not always been that way and TBH i miss the variety and convenience !!!
i still have the odd night when i eat what i like but sine doing this diet with the NP i have never felt better (ie: going to the toilet everyday)
we have very basic meals most nights
Roast veggies and meat
Fish and steamed veggies
veggies and meat soup (DH might add an oxo cube when im not looking)
Tonight
Salmon, corn on cob, broccoli, cauli, sweet pot, pumpkin, brussle sprouts!
i cook rice and roast veg and eat for lunch most days
and im still trying to eat 8 eggs a week!
made a roast veg quiche the other night with feta and it was yum
sounds like we must see the same naturopath almost PP. Nothing processed at all end of story.
We have a couple of things out of a can like kidney beans etc but only the organic ones and we have tomato sauce but again only the organic variety. Pretty much everything else we do fresh....oh and I so hear you on the egg thing!! We do buy bread but from the baker not the supermarket, even our milk and cheese (white cheese only) is organic. I have to say my body feels heaps better without all the chemicals and carbs in it.
i guess i'm not THAT anal about my food. am working on improving it, but i look at that fact that, GI aside, home made soup with pumpkin, sweet potato, broccoli, cauli, turnip, swede, a little garlic, onion, potato, carrot - it has to be healthier than chips from KFC on the way home from work (which is so much easier!). a lot of prepackaged stuff plays havoc with my stomach, so this works a charm for me! microwave will be my new best friend!
sushee - if i don't do something like i've done this week, i WOULD be a convenience girl - i just can't cope with the IBS all the time, so am trying to find a way around it (that actually tastes better than cardboard!!). i don't think poor DH was expecting to have to work so hard on his days off, but too bad! it needed to be done - the freezer on our upside down friddge freezer thingy is now full of nothing but meals for DH to take to work with him! it's nice to HAVE to cook something that he can take away every time he's home - not a lot heats properly on the little gas cookers! now we can have roast or staek when he's home....
I know I should get myself better organised and start cooking better, but tbh I'm always feeling like I'm chasing my own tail trying to keep up with myself. I shall watch this convo with interest and endeavour to be inspired by you lovely ladies, though!
i think you've done a wonderful job BG and i wish i could have the stammer to do the same, but i would get bored with all that cooking in one day, plus we don't have the room in the freezer as DH has his last uneventful fishing trip's bait in it!!!!(don't ask, lol)
And another thing would be that i have forgotten what i put in there and how long its been!!i do label things but that doesn't always seem to work for me.
Mel your np sounds very similar to mine! only white cheese and only sour dough bread, so no yeast!im switching to goats milk soon just to give it a try. oh and my np says i can only eat yanla yoghurt, which i don't mind and like
ahhhh - another cheat thing PP - i have made a little table to put on the fridge - has a list of what we've cooked, and when - and as it's taken out of the freezer, it gets crossed off (yes, i'm anal!) - that way i'll know what is left, when it was cooked - can make sure everything is eaten in order, and replace whatever has been eaten! have put a sticker on each container showing what's in it and what date it was cooked - so if there is something we've done two batches of (vegie soup for instance), we know to use the earlier date first...
sushee - i've found that forcing myself to do this today should keep me motivated! we cleaned out the freezer of all the older food that hadn't been labelled (the dogs have had warm soup for dinner!), and now everything is looking less daunting - i figure doing this once, i can now cook up a few meals a week for the freezer (even if it's on my days off when i cook for me - i can cook for DH too), and we theoretically won't run out... and if it's a habit, if i have to do another stim cycle and feel like crap, or when i'm pg and about to burst (i like this option better!!!), it won't seem like such a chore to cook and eat healthy...
oh yeah, i DO try to eat low GI as often as possible - and i think that's part of why i've done this - i don't eat meat at all if i have to cook it after work - too much effort - it's all veg. not really unhealthy, but not great from a GI perspective - this is both healthy, and atleast there is meat in most of the dishes, so it's an improvement!
Ok fellow bbers!!
Looks like we were a busy bunch yesterday (some more than others. hehe)
the cooler weather has taken its toll on me and i am so tired all the time!! I guess having to read so much for uni is not helping as im not a good 'reader' and find myself wither a)avoiding (like doing this) or b) falling asleep!
BW - i posted in your journal and hope that you are able to get some relief soon.
BG - what for tea tonight??After yesterdays cookathon your be able to put your feet up for the next two weeks. i couldn't be that organised if i tried!
Sushee - good to see you pop in- i know how busy to are at the moment, but its nice to see you
Mel - where is your np? i didn't make it to the market this month, although MIL asked me to go with her, and it would have been a good day to go with the clocks going back!! Instead DH and i went out for breakfast which we haven't doen in ages and we took the dog for a walk together which was nice.
TL - so glad to hear that work is going well - GL for Thursday sniffing - must say its something i don't miss. One of the many benefits with having a fet.
Smartie - haven't seen you on line for a while - how is the TWW going? not long now for your BT
Megan - i hope the weekend has calmed down a little for you and that your visitors have been and gone and the house is back to normal - with power still!! i couldn't bare to be without power - am scared of the dark!!!we will re arrange market visit soon.
Ellie - hows things with you?
Ann- you in thailand yet? always thing of you
belle - havent seen you either - hope everything is ok?
Shannon - once again congrats see you on the other side!!
Holly - GL with your upcoming bt and getting started with DR S
Chez - Thinking of you
im plodding along here waiting for af to start - or am i waiting for her to finish? still spotting since 10th march!! Ap has given me some herbs to help settle it all down. although i guess i need to take them for them to work!! problem is i have no energy to get up in the morning so then im late with taking them so just dont bother - its a vicious circle!!
hey holly what the name of that chocolate place we went o as im trying to get DH to go with me next week!! yum
PP - i had spag bol reheated for lunch - tonight - well, i have to go meet DH in town (the idiot forgot to repack his clean clothes AND to grab some food when he left this morning!) - so it could be almost anything... will probably depend on what he wants to be honest...
typical - we go to all this trouble and they just forget!!DH does it all the time!! at least you get to spend some time together tonight.
PP, I think I should really stop complaining - spotting since the 10th! That's way worse than what I've been through. Acupuncture does a lot for the headaches, but I'm not there again until Tuesday evening. I have a moxa stick and I know which points on my toes to heat to help stop uterine bleeding - I may just dig it out tonight!
I can sort of manage the headache if I sit quietly and still... but if I move I get very dizzy. I can see the bugger disappearing completely when I wake up on Monday morning - stay around long enough to mess up my weekend, stop me doing my marking and catching up with friends, and then disappear when work starts again so I can't even take another day off to catch up slowly!
Hope everyone has had a great weekend.
BW
Wow, it got busy in here after I left yesterday! :) This thread seems to go through stages....no news for days, and that lots of chat all of a sudden. It's good to see things a bit more lively at the moment. :)
Well, DH is alive and well. ;) He played golf, I cleaned but he took me out last night to the comedy festival and china town for dinner. It was good to get out and laugh a little, and forget about all the crap for a while. Then, this morning he let me sleep and went and bought some groceries and tidied up the house again. So, he has redeemed himself somewhat. ;) I've had a PJ day today. I am about to cook dinner (only because I feel like risotto and DH can't cook it for some reason!) and that will be about as much as I do today. I'm still feeling nauseous today, but the feeling of getting a cold has gone away. I've been taking my temp since I o'd and it dropped a bit this morning. I don't know if it's a genuine drop in temp, or if it's because it was so cold this morning. I then noticed some brownish CM when I got up so I dont know if this is the beginning of the end.
PP, sorry about the market. It was just bad timing with everything that has happened this week. It was nice though that you got to spend some time out with DH. Spotting since the 10th? I couldn't cope.
BG, I should take a leaf out of your book too and cook up some stuff for the freezer. Everything that you're cooking is the kind of stuff I like and DH doesn't. So, I really should cook up a few different meals to put in the freezer in single serves for when he wants steak or pork or something I don't really like. Speaking of the freezer, we have to throw out all of our frozen food as the power was off for nearly 3 days. Thankfully we were running low on meat (we only had a roast chicken and roast pork) and we usually buy bulk packs. But, there's still probably close to $50+ of stuff that will go straight in the bin.
OK, DH has chopped everything and I need to start cooking (before he ruins it!!).
More personals later....have a good start to the week everyone. :)
Well, it seems I'm out...again. Bigger temp drop this morning, and AF was here by about 11. Couldn't bare to be at work so I came home about an hour ago. Just when I think I couldn't possibly cry anymore... Feeling really lost and at a big dead end at the moment.
Megan, :hugs: I am so sorry.
BW
Megan :hug: so sorry hun
Oh megan hun im so sorry
I don't know what else to say. you know where i am
words just cant say how sorry i am megan
:hug: Oh Megan I am so sorry hun
Hi Guys
I hope you don't mind me posting here i really wanted to say hi, I have been stalking you guys and don't really feel like i belong in the preggas thread yet. Still have the LTAC mentality :) But wanted to let you know we found out this morning we are expecting twins.
I think i will keep stalking this thread for a while and keep up with how you are all going. I have everything crossed for everyone!
Shan
Megan - Hun, I am so so sorry xxx :hugs:
There are just no words to make you feel better - I wish I could give you hugs in person xxx
Lou - Only just saw your text this morning - am going to call you after lunch and see if you're at home... by the way the name of the chocolate shop is Max Brenner's.... Will talk to you asap xxxxxx
BW - Hope your head is better, hun. So sorry we missed meeting up on Sunday - will do it very soon though... holidays less than a week away now... YAY!!!!!!!! :)
BG, Odette, Sushee, TL and everyone else - big Hi!!!
Shannon - YAY!!!!!! :dance: I knew there were going to be 2 in there!!! Hope they're settling in nicely with their new mummy... I'm soooo jealous ;) would absolutely be ecstatic if I was having twins!!!
Praying that your BFP is contagious for all of us!!! :D
:clap:
hellooooo i'm back!!!
for those who dont know me here's a quick version of my TTC story. IVF from Jan - Oct last year... 7 eggs, 6 fertilized, 5 blasties. on transfer 3 one finally took only to have bubs heartbeat stop at 9 1/2 weeks at the end of oct. D&C was really traumatic and havent been here since. we had a transfer last month but told NOBODY as i was upset that some of inlaws family were saying 'sorry about the baby' to me on XMAS DAY!.... oh well. good intentions i suppose.
our last transfer our frostie thawed well only to start to deteriorate just before we arrived for transfer. so last frostie was thawed but unfortunately didnt stick....
soooo..... straight back into it. synarel starts on 16th of this month and puregon injection on day 1 or 2 of next cycle... woo hoo!!! having stronger doses of puregon this time so hoping for a good number of frosties.....
fingers crossed
to all i dont know i will endeavour to read last few posts to get to know you. to all the regulars HI!!! :dance:
Welcome back Sonya! :D
Nice to have you around again... but hoping you're not here for too long ;)
Have everything crossed for you that this one is the one xxxx
Sonya, I'm really glad to see you back - I have missed you!
Still plodding along with my lucrin... Have had a busy day with acupuncture and then bible study, so rather exhausted now. I'm still freaking spotting! My acupuncture lady gave me a moxa stick and I'll be "cooking" my toes to try to get it to stop. Hardly seems worth calling the clinic about it as I'll be in there on Friday... Yep, phone phobia in action.
Holly, I feel so awful about having to cancel on Sunday, but I will move heaven and earth to get to the big meet up next week! I thought I'd come good during the day, but it never happened. By the end of the day I had really severe dizziness whenever I moved my head, and coupled with the pain, the puke factor was getting pretty extreme. Couldn't get to church Sunday night, didn't get to work yesterday... But DH was lovely last night and I got a back rub (with extras ;)) that finally got me relaxed enough for the worst of it to subside. Have been back at work today, mildly stressed, but functional. Hope I never have to go through that again!
Anyway... off to bed for me... after a bit more reading...
BW