Long Term Assisted Conception - October/November '05

[SuziQ]

A Message from Sheree (Magic)

Unfortunately, Sheree got a BFN this time.

I am great and taking 3 months off. Hoping for a miracle natural conception while on some natural therapies.

Chin up Sheree, we're all here when you're ready.

Love
Sue

[Baby~amore`]

Sheree

I am so sorry for BFN - no words can really comfort ...the extreme unfairness of life when we lose precious babies or our attempts to get pregnant are twarted over and over

Take care of your heart and I hope natural therpaies work a miracle.You really deserve it

WE all know you have great personal strength to have gone through so much in your efforts to become pregnant, and I hope you will now find the strength to continue on this journey when you are ready.
We have all appreciated your support here and we will miss you

For now be gentle with yourselves, grieve and cry as much as you need to.
I will be thinking of you for November for EDD of EP.

[humphrey]

Great news Sue - hope your little marshmellows are nice and toasty in your belly belly.

I've had my first meltdown today thanks to the Gonal F. DH was the recipient of course and is treading very lightly around me atm. I'm just feeling a little alone this time and not getting enough support from him. He is so blase about the whole thing and forgets how physically demanding it is as well as mentally. Just need to get through this month...

So sorry for you Sheree. I have no words for you just my sincere sympathy.

Tam - are you OK honey? Come back to us when you're ready.

[*Tam*]

I'M BACK!!!

Just popping in though, not sure if my story got around, I'm ok.
I've been on a weekend away and just got back. Had a good time.
I'm going to go back & catch up on everything first.
see you soon

[humphrey]

I'm in the dark Tam.... would love to hear what's been happening with you.

[*Tam*]

Am glad everyone is doing well:

Bee, well done on EPU & ET, and I agree that the saying does wear off a bit, I try never to use those exact words myself. Good luck.

Sue, well done to you too, it was quick, what CD are you?

What are you beta dates Bee & Sue.

Shazey & Blue Sky, I guess the AF wait helps you out with deciding on the path for your next cycle. It's just the pain of the wait in the meantime.

Keen, thumbs up to starting your cycle again & the positive attitude, I think mine actually dipped in the last cycle.

Trish & Humphrey, yay on the Puregon start, that's a sign that it won't be long.

Take care

[*Tam*]

Well my story is that I had 2 pregnancies!
One from each of my last 2 HRT FETs.

I rang to get my beta a day early (last Tuesday) because I had a pain on Monday afternoon & some slight spotting in the morning.
The result showed that I was 6-7 weeks pg (>20,000)
Could I have been pg before this cycle started? No, back to back FETs.
Went in for an u/s, showed a possible cyst on the ovary, nothing in uterus.

Then ended up at the public hospital with referral, thoughts were of an ectopic pg!
I was admitted and u/s the next day showed possible cyst (2cm) and also a sac in my uterus. (hcg now >30,000) I had all the doctors interested at this point, not really sure what was going on. Lap had to be done but couldn't fit me in on Wednesday. Wait for tomorrow.
Thursday couldn't get in for lap until 7.30pm. In the mean time I had started bleeding. Results showed that the 'cyst' was actually an ectopic pg (just about ready to burst). My right tube was lost in the process.
On Friday, a repeat u/s showed my other pg had gone as well.
It is an extremely rare medical name of being pg from 2 consecutive months at the same time.

So in the end have ended up with no pg, but are positive that we did have success, each FET worked.

And now feeling a bit sorry for myself physical wise, stitches come out tomorrow and continue to recover.
We were going to have a break if not successful by the end of the year but have now decided to have a break until the new year.
Looking forward to being ME again for a while & enjoying my DH, Family & Friends.
I will not 'go away' because I too know the value of my internet friends.
I just hope there are some left before I come back (not really, I hope to see you in the pg forums)

Take care

(Oops, better change my signature)

[Baby~amore`]

Tam
om gosh - I just don't know what to say

your poor thing I am so sorry for your ordeal - and so very sorry for your loss of your babies and right tube.

I know you sound incredibly strong -just to post this but take time out for yourself , hug your man tight and your DD and love the ones you are with and let them love you.Grieve and cry as much as you need to.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.I wish you strength to continue this journey and healing both physical and emotional.
with love,light and hope

[Blue Sky]

Sheree - There's no words. I feel for you pet. Take all the time you need, we'll be here for you when you're ready.

Tam - So sorry to hear about what you've been through! I second what Trish has said (she always says it so well).

Take care girls,
H

[SuziQ]

Oh *Tam*, what you've been through. Please take care of yourself. So sorry for you having to experience all that. Just unbelievable. Take care of your heart and get plenty of rest. Please keep popping in to chat!!!
My beta is 16/11 I think....
Hope you're all going well.
I've spoken with the judging panel - Sonny and Cher it is..... Have to admit to being a bit of an old 60's hippy chick at heart.
Have a good day all.
Love
Sue

[Melbo]

Hello Lovely Ladies,

Tam - No I hadn't heard and oh my, I'm so sorry for what happened ... what a time you've had. It must have been quite an ordeal. Thinking of you and hoping your recovery from the surgery is swift. I imagine the heart takes a little longer though.

Sheree - So sorry to hear about your results too. I hope this break will give you some rest both physically and emotionally. Take it easy.

Sue - Thinking of you and your two little embryos and hoping for wonderful results in a couple of weeks' time.

Trish - Hope you are going okay with this stim cycle and thinking of you with your BT on the 3rd. I so want this to work for you.

Bee - You are in my thoughts as always as you two week wait it out.

Nola - Thinking of you too with your precious embryo on board.

Blue - I hope AF turns up soon so that you don't have to keep waiting. 56 days is amazing ... hope you are not too uncomfortable.

Keen - Best of luck with your new cycle, pet. Everything crossed for you.

Humphrey - Hope you are feeling better today. Can quite understand the meltdown thing ... sometimes I think the partners step back from it a bit because they really don't know how to deal with it. Of course, it is no help to you because you just feel like crap sometimes and really want a bit of support. Thinking of you.

Lots of you going through some heavy stuff in here ... you are always in my thoughts.

Love,

Mel

[sushee]

Hi girls,

I'm sorry I didn't post anything on Tam's behalf. Unfortunately the email I got from her DH late last week just said that there were complications, but nothing else. I didn't know what she was going through and I was never able to get him on email again.

Tam, what an amazing ordeal. You know I love you, my sweetness, and will be here if you need me.

I'll be back later to say hi to everyone else, but at work and everyone's trying to call here before the Melb Cup starts! sigh!

:smt023 Sonny and Cher!

love
sushee

[*Tam*]

Thanks for the thoughts, Geoff told me he emailed Sushee, but I didn't know what.

Stitches out now so 1 more healing step down.
Also got a call from my clinic, have to do a BT on Thursday. I guess it's their follow up on last week's results because I moved to the public hospital to get everything done.

Take care

[Keen]

Good God Tam, thats an amazing but awful ordeal. I really feel for you, honey and cant imagine what your going through :hugs: .

[shazey]

Sheree sorry about your results, enjoy the break and we are looking forward to seeing you back her in the future.

Tam I also didnt know about your story sorry you have lost your bubs and your tube, you can stiill do amazing things with one tube, keep your chin up.

Sue congrats on sonny and cher I hope they decide to stick around, they sound like very good embies.

Trish hope the stimming is going well good luck with your blood test on the 3rd.

Bee I hope the 2ww isnt sending you mad

Nola I hope your little embie also decides to stick around, we could have a few graduates from here soon.

Keen I hope everything is going well for you this cycle, good luck

Blue has AF arrived yet

Well AF arrived for me on the 30th so I had to make a big decision, I could go ahead with the cycle and work 100 hours a week to pay for it, or I could cancel the cycle and wait until the new year, Well my nurse told me to stop stressing as she can keep me on the synarel for another couple of weeks until I have more money togethor (I didnt know they could do this) I was supposed to start jabbing 3rd Nov but now I will call the clinic around the 10th Nov and they can keep me on the synarel another week if need be. The coordinator of the clinic is going to speak to my doctor today to see if there is something else we can do (reduction in out of pocket expenses) as I have been a patient of his for a long time, she dosent feel there will be a problem. So its all good news so far, but will still have to do extra shifts, which is fine because I know its going towards something worthwhile.

Hope everyone is well, fingers crossed for all you wonderful ladies taking this journey

[Bee]

Tam and Sheree, I'm thinking of you both and send you huge . And to you too Shazey and I hope this cycle works out for you. Good on you for being so determined!!

[Baby~amore`]

Shazey
hope it all works out for you - don't forget to count your Synarel doses ...
I think it is amazing your nurse going out and asking for you.I agree with Bee - your determination will prove worthy

[SuziQ]

hello...

Where is everyone???
Bee, how are you 2WWing? Plenty to distract you?
Yoohoo, Blue, where are you?
Trish, I read your post about your E2 level in the other thread and replied in there. It's around 2000 lower than mine at the same stage and mine was too high. Hopefully, yours is just right. Or, maybe you will zoom along too. Get organised just in case... I know you're sick of it dragging out.
Magic and Tam - hope you're both doing ok.
Chris, you're a jabberjaws. Don't tell me you've been allowed back into the kitchen....
Sush, you too. What's the go?
Glad AF arrived for you Shazey and that your clinic is being flexible.
Hi Keen, how are things down south - that's south coast I mean.
I'm going fine. Have had swollen, sore BBs, lower back period type pain and extreme bloating ever since epu. Hopefully, that will keep the positive/negative pg symptoms paranoia at bay. Maybe. I think.... J & C are fine too. Lucky I've got them to keep me company atm.
Hi to anyone I've missed.
Love
Sue
:luck: :luck: