I think sometimes i try to hard at being strong and it all builds and builds and builds and then BANG it all falls apart...
:smt021 That emoticon is my way of saying you've hit the nail on the head - whopping big nail...
Positive thinking is definitely the way to go but, nobody on this rollercoaster can possibly be positive all the time. And, you have had so much to contend with in the past six months. Your sunny attitude is inspirational to all of us, that doesn't mean you're not allowed to have the cr*ppy times as well.
As horrible as it is Leis, it's important to make sure you actually feel the pain and frustration. That's the only way you'll get past it.
Having said that....chin up and take care of your heart.
Sue