Bec, no, it doesn't get easier. The only aspect that gets easier is that you know what to expect regarding treatments, and having needles etc.
I don't think it matters how you look at it - emotionally, scientifically, informed or blissfully-ignorant-on-purpose - not ending up with that longed-for bub in your arms is so painful. Already having one child certainly doesn't mean you have to step aside for others. No way! :smt018
I'm tempted to type don't worry, but I know you will anyway! But, I do think you're doing the right thing by taking a little time out to sort through your feelings, getting your head and heart into the right place. No point hopping on the rollercoaster if you're feeling negative and unsure.
But, as I keep saying (yawn...) :-({|= , the heart wants what the heart wants. Am pretty sure that eventually you'll try again - that yearning is still there. And, yes, have a look at all the successes there have been in the past couple of months. Particularly those for whom it must have at times seemed an impossible dream given their history - Sheree, Trish, Sush (even if she isn't a recent graduate!). Miracles happen, this forum proves that.
Keep your chin up and take care of your heart.
Sue