Hi Shazey
I know how hard making that decision is. But in the end, it comes down to how LT AC is affecting your health, relationships, peace of mind and every single aspect of your life. Not to mention your finances!
But, once that decision has been made, it will eventually start to feel as though a weight has been lifted. Feeling that release of pressure in no way equates to how much you want a family. I don't mean that wanting a child so badly is a burden. It's just that when your focus truly turns to other things, you'll feel more free in a lot of ways.
Hopefully, the year ahead will bring happiness for you. Enjoy this time looking after and getting to know you again. There's a whole big world out there. You're on the right track with your change in jobs. Who knows, in years to come you may return to it.
I'm sure you'll be fine. It can take a long time to really come to grips with this decision you have so bravely taken though. Please always remember - a woman is not defined by her ability to conceive.
Feel free to PM any time.
Take care of your heart.
Sue