Hi Shannan,
I hope that your first (and subsequent) appointments go well. You and your DH have been through alot, so I hope that this is the start of a positive turnaround.

I know that it is really difficult, but pls dont be too hard on yourself about why you are having to go down this pathway. Even if the medical probs are 'yours', they are not your fault - you did not create them, cause them, or ask for them, so dont punish yourself. Try and be kind to yourself.

Good luck
FG