About to start ivf

[mummy2chloe]

Hey

i have been ttc#2 for 6.5yrs now and have done 4 IUI's and a couple of clomid cycles and i am now about to start my first round of ivf

so why is it that i am not excited??? i cant help but feel scared and worried that i am going to let dp and dd down. i am scared that my body wont do what its suppose to and i am worried that i might not make enough eggs or i might make to many, and then i go on to think what happens if my eggs arent good quality. OH GOD I JUST WANT TO STOP BLOODY THINKING

i am due for af tomorrow and then start the pill a day later and for the first time in my life i dont want to get af ( and its not cos i want to be pregnant) i dont want it cos it means its the start of the ivf!!!!!

dont get me wrong i have wanted to do ivf for so long now, but now its here i am so scared and nervous. i dont want to talk to dp about it as i dont want him to have doubt in me, i want him to think that i am being strong and thinking positive. i just wish i could but all i can think of lately is the " WHAT IF'S" i just wish i was in the tww already.

people tell me how do i stop the THINKING, i just want to let all the thoughts go and just let what happen happen!

i feel tired and over the ivf already and it hasnt even started.

please tell me that one of you felt like this aswell??? ( i wont feel so crazy then lol)

thanks for allowing me to get this off my chest

[Muppity]

I'm in the TWW of an IVF cycle at the moment and know a little about how you feel. I was terrified that I was going to go through all this and that there was nothing I could do about the outcome (can you see the control freak in me coming out). In the end I just told myself that these people were professionals and were in the business of making babies so I just had to trust them. Once I told myself that I was right and once it all started I was quite excited about the process.

But, if you are having real doubts about it I would ring the clinic and ask to speak to a counsellor as it is a service that they offer and that is what it is there for.

Don't worry, you aren't crazy at all. It is a hugely draining emotional and physical process and there are so many unknowns.

You aren't alone

[briggsy's girl]

nope, not crazy at all! i think we all have those thoughts - the "what ifs" make it so much harder! it's a huge step, and as scary as hell to take that step! i think you need to look at what you've already been through - you have been through IUI so the FS already knows how your body responds to meds. you'll do great!

time to stop thinking of the what if's of the process, and think about the outcome you're dreaming of. focus on what you want, not what you need to do to get there!

thinking of you

BG

[Sara69]

Hi,

Understand how you feel as I am feeling similar myself, it's just a scary thing to do. I think it's a good idea to talk to a counsellor to get it off your chest and make sure it's really what you want to do. Wishing you luck and peace on your journey.

Sara

[mummy2chloe]

thanks so much for the replies

i dont feel so crazy now lol

Well its officially started 7 yrs in the waiting

I started the pill 2 days ago and should be starting the syneral around the 19th.

i am a little worried about the syneral. do you spray and sniff at the same time or do you spray then sniff??? silly question i know also can i drink straight after i have sniffed it so i can get rid of the taste?? also what are the side effects like??

while i am on the silly questions lol is there a time in all of this when we shouldnt be having sex?? obviously 3-4 days before egg pick up so we have a good sample on that day. but is there any other time in all of this when its not really a good idea??

i soooooo cant believe i am finally doing all of this
i am still scared and nervous but pretty excited and blessed that we can finally do ivf

also probably ANOTHER silly question ( sorry) do i treat this tww any different then an IUI tww?? its just that i play tennis every monday night and was wondering wether i should still play if i am in tww with an ivf cycle, i do alot of running around and i get pretty hot, and i think i read somewhere about body temps while in tww and that you shouldnt get it to high????

ok enough of my questions

thanks again for your help the other day, i was having the biggest anxiety attack and you guys made me feel sooooo much better so thank you

[curlygirl]

Hi mummy2chloe,

I'm starting my first IVF too for baby #1. Just got my synarel and injection kit this morning! I tried the synarel, I was told by the nurse to pump and sniff in gently at the same time. I feel sleepy, but that can also be because I was too tired over the weekend. There's a good thread on synarel side effects on this forum, you might want to take a peek.

I was also told not to have sex at all for the whole cycle for the risk of multiple pregnancy

Not sure about exercising, but maybe you check with your FS first just to be on the safe side?

Good luck!!