Lynn - i'm so sorry to hear you've been feeling negative - i can only imagine how hard things are for you at this time. just wanted to pose a question that popped to mind when you posted - you mentioned testing on Monday and also said that Cooper would be six months old on Monday - will it be too emotional to test on Monday? i have my fingers crossed that you will get a BFP - but if it's not, will that make Monday even more difficult than it already is? i guess i'm just wondering if it's better to hold onto hope until Tuesday.... it's such a terribly hard decision to make, i'm sure. hope everything is positive for you, no matter when you test

take care