Hello Everyone ... this is my first time to join the forum and I feel that this is the only place where I can be me - to share my inner thoughts and feelings with people who I feel can understand my situation. I got married at a late age - 35 because I focused too much on work. I have been TTC since mid-2008, in July 2009 polyps were removed from my uterus. This month was my first cycle to use Clomid.
I am optimistic about it .. although I can feel the tension between me and my husband. I feel very desperate to have a child, and feel very alone - I have no one here except my husband. My family lives far from me.
I would give up anything just to have a child. I dont want to be childless. I hope I can get pregnant with clomid - they said success rate is good within 6 months. I am not sure if anyone had tried this before. I am not overly concerned about twins, etc .. I am a bit concerned about clomid affecting my cervical mucus.
You are certainly in the right place for support and advice and there are plenty of ladies on here who are or have been in a similar situation.
Optimistic is a good way to be
I know from experience that TTC long term can have an affect on your relationship. It took us 2 yrs and 9 months to conceive our last child and DTD (doing the deed) became a bit of a chore and not exactly romantic. Hang in there though
Wishing you all the best and hope your dream comes true for you soon xoxo
Hi Monette,
Welcome to BB and good luck with the clomid - I really hope that it works for you. I hope that you find lots of support here from those that can identify with what you are going through. I think that many of us who have had difficulty being blessed with a baby can identify with feelings of isolation and of needing support and understanding, and also of the strain that TTC can put on relationships. Good luck.
FG
I hear you Monette. I don't reckon blokes get it in the same way that women do. We have been trying for 18 months now, and I tell you I think my husband probably thinks about the concept of having another baby approximately 4 or 5 times a month max. I, on the other hand, think about having a baby approximately 4 or 5 times in a morning or afternoon every single day. Wondering if I should eat or drink something or other, walk instead of drive (to get fitter). The constant taking of temperatures, monitoring vaginal mucus, opks! It's enough to make any woman feel a bit nutty and alone! Especially as it's not the sort of thing that you can discuss in polite conversation. And I find, even if you are confiding in a girlfriend there's only so many years you can keep talking about the same frustration (especially if they become pregnant themselves in the meantime). I know how frustrating and depressing it can be and have absolutely no advice whatsoever, except to say that here on Belly Belly you are not alone!
And Ps. Monette, this is also my first month of clomid. I do believe I feel just a little bit nuttier or more depressed than I usually do, I've also had the WORST insomnia I can remember having in ages. I'm putting it down to the clomid. Just what I need! More crying!!
My situation is pretty similar to you, so I have posted. My family and really good friends are far away from here and my friends here have children. I know they don't mean to give me hard time and they are concerning about me, but sometimes it's really hard to meet and talk them. I feel isolated too.
What did your gyn tell say when you went to see him/her ?
I'm PCOS and it's my 2nd cycle on clomid. Last cycle it didn't work, so this cycle took 100mg. I feel depressed, nutty, and am putting on weight. If I could ovulate, worth putting up with the side effect but not sute..
My gyn told me that if clomid doesn't work within 3 cycles, I need to go Sydney IVF.
It's hard to keep positive but I'm trying and enjoy my life, hope you feel the same.
Desperate and Alone
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