huge hugs hun
no it doesnt get any easier- you just learn to live with it not as raw
everytime family or friends would annouce they were expecting another baby, it would rip me to the core. I wanted to poke their eyes out
when they whinged about their kids or complained to me about their kids, I would want to slap them so they could remember how lucky they were to have kids to complain about to start with
It took us 5 years and 3 IVF rounds to get our twins
then another 4 cycles that included a m/c before we got our 'natural' miracle boof
there is 6 years in between our kids for that reason and we tried full on from when the twins were 10 months old to have more kids!!
every single AF would kill me
but you learn to adjust your mindset to cope
what got me through was to make sure I was always doing something pro-active to help improve our chances of conceiving, even when we were giving IVF a break
I gave up caffenine for 5 years
I started making sure my water count was good
I saw either a Natropath to get herbs to help my cycle, a TCM practictioner who did a/p on me (and i credit with our natural success!!!), an osteopath to help regulate my hormones
anything that would help- track my cycle, temp- i knew my cycle so well that I could tell when I would ovulate and what side from!!!
I also got DH to take Menivet - which improves sperm quality
you can also take other vitamins to help in this dept.

I found the pro-active approach meant that at least I was still working on the 'project' and I was at least on track to making it 'happen'

hang in there hun- we are all here for you!!!!