Hugs hun. If lying is what it takes for you to be able to cope then lie away. I do. Every day. Even to myself. I'd love a huge family, kids everywhere, constant noise and craziness. But I can't go through the roller coaster of ltttc again. I can't do a horrible pregnancy like I had with dd. so I tell everyone I'm happy with one. And most of the time I am -I've done a good job of convincing even myself. But sometimes I let myself think maybe...

Massive hugs and far too much understanding