Shellshell,

I think your feelings are totally normal. After ttc for 1.5yrs and two losses I really felt angry that I had ever taken the pill and felt it was the sole cause for my fertillity problems (one dr told me I had lazy eggs - from being on the pill for so long!). We dont realise how much these sorts of things can really affect our health and well being. I dont think I will ever go back on the pill, and while its ok for some women, for some of us it really does put a spanner in the works.

Im praying you find some answers soon, and that you have a miracle in your belly before you know it. Take care of yourself sweets, we cant change the past - but ook ahead and with a little faith things will work themselves out...

Sending you lots of hugs,
Lisa