Hi everyone

I have returned and have just spent ages catching up on all of your posts.

Congratulations to all the girls with BPFs! It is certainly great to see.

Well, I had the surgery on 29 September and the results were unfortunately not fantastic.

I had more endo, scattered all through my uterus, pouch of douglas, bowel etc which has been lasered off.

Unfortunately the tubal cannulation was not a success. He was not able to get access to my left tube (at all) and my right tube was only accessible to 2cm. (He was hoping for 5cm each).

I saw him on 15/10 for my post op appt and he says we have about a 10% chance of conceiving in the next four months.

I'm to continue having the CD21 progesterone blood test done - this month without Clomid - to see if I ovulate. (Apparently sometimes people "rebound" after surgery and O on their own). If my progesterone level is low this month (or no O at all), then I'm allowed another three cycles of Clomid - but that will be it.

I have an appointment scheduled to see him in Feb (unless we get a BFP before then), at which time we will make the final decision (ie will we go back on BCP or have we changed our minds about IVF).

DH and I are still not keen on the IVF idea and if we don't fall in the next 4 months are going to pull the pin and accept our lot in life. We have just about everything else we want in life, including our health (if you exclude my "womens problems" and IBS) so we feel we should be grateful for what we have if that's what's meant to be.

I have learned that I can control most things in my life but nature will take care of her own...

We will survive without children of our own - we have so many friends whose children we love dearly (and, LOL, we can hand them back when they start screaming).

Anyways, I'm really glad to hear about the wonderful BFPs and I hope to see many more in the coming months. Who knows, maybe it will be me...

Take care everyone,
Best wishes
Carissa