Hi Girls

Thanks so much for the support and encouragement. We are going to see the GP on thursday night, I am going to ask for a referall to a RE.
I know that I am stressing when we havent had any other tests (other than that one semen analysis) to say that there is an irreversable problem.
I suppose we can repeat the semen test with the GP while we are waiting for an appointment with a RE.
Although I think I am in a bit of denial at the moment, I have half convinced myself that we will never have children, I feel a bit icky about donor sperm. I cant help playing the 'what if' game in my head. DH wanted to start trying as soon as we were married but I convinced him to wait two years, we just had our third anniversary last week, It was always 'when I finish uni, when we pay off more of the mortgage, when we have more savings etc etc....'.
I suppose we still have time on our side, i am 26 and DH is 28. I just need to push it out of my mind for a few weeks, (on top of all this pressure I am studying to be a CPA, and also have been retrenched so I have to get a new job at the end of june) Once I have sat my exam I can stress again.

DH has banned me from researching on the internet because it gets me upset and I cant concentrate on my study. He is acting very cool about the whole thing, I think its a tough man act, he has always been a man of few words. Ironic though, he has always loved kids more that me and is better with them than me, (im a bit more career minded) and he is the one with the problem.

Hey, has anyone been to a psychic? I saw one two months ago, a lot of the things she has said had or did happen. She did say that we wouldnt need ivf and would have two children and may possibly go for a third. She said it would be boy, girl, girl. She did say that we dont have any medical problems and DH should get his sperm checked. I think this is the denial talking again.

Keen, I would be curious to hear how your friends go with their their second go at the the biopsy thing (I have read about that). My biggest worry is that there would be no sperm in there to remove via the biopsy. How many does he have removed at a time? Anyway I better go because i am at work, good luck for thursday Keen.

Ann, Keen, Melissa, you are all angels, thanks again. I hope to travel through all your ups and downs with you.

Love Michelle