Hi Aqua
I hear you hun...I too find the whole thing really painful. I always wonder at tranfer how the poor little embies have a chance when I'm in so much pain and feeling so ill...but we keep going. I went through a time when I was really down and ready to throw in the towel and a friend suggested I get another opinion...I couldn't change clinics...too emotionally involved...so I just had a one off appointment and chatted our story through with the other FS and left feeling good about what we were doing.
I'm sure there is an end point to all this...I pray that it's when I hold my baby in my arms but some days I wonder...but I do know...for sure...that when that day comes I will have done everything I can for that dream to come true! Good luck hun xxx