I know it wasn't. Andie is right - its realistic - and that's good. But it's still sad.

Sometimes pretending its just going to happen helps.

I really am scared its not going to I just want a little one to call my own. I feel empty and pointless. And I guess that's the whole point of the article.... What happens with all this emotion - how do we reconcile it all and what do we do with it all. I sometimes wish I could go somewhere and we could all cry together - like people do at a funeral - they are not grieving alone. But we do.