Hey Fergie- I wrote heaps of stuff for you but its been moved to the general conception forum titled 'Conception Advice'.
I didn't want to bombard you- given that you are obviously upset right now. I just wanted to provide you with an alternative perspective, and with some information that your doctor may not have told you in regards to conception. So, please check it out when you can.
I hope this helps you in some way.

Sorry again for your loss.
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