DD1 is now 21 months and is so amazing. I got my cycle back when she was 2 months old (so much for breastfeeding preventing it! Lol). Anyway.... Since then.....nothing. Nada. No pregnancy whatsoever..... So essentially I have been TTC since she was born and have now been 19 months without anything happening. Way longer than trying for the first one.
i know it's not this simple, but sometimes, I really wonder what's wrong with me. I'm so thankful for my daughter.... But.... I really wanted more babies too
anyway..... So I'm back. I have two embryos left, Id like to do another PGD cycle after that if these ones don't work..... But I suspect we wouldn't be able to afford it
im not as desperate to have the baby like I was before DD. But each month still stings.
Hi myturn, i know exactly how you feel, we tried again till DD was about 2 before coming to the conclusion it's never going to just happen, she's now almost 3 and we are still not pregnant. I use to feel completely blessed that we finally got what we wanted so badly and if I couldn't have another I would be ok with that, but now I so desperately want another and it feels just as devastating as last time I was going through all this.
We seen our FS this week and it's the same old story, everything looked perfect last cycle it just didn't take so pretty much everything the same this cycle except we are going to try using embryo glue. From what I have read there are mixed results as to if the stuff is helpful but I guess anything that can improve our chances is worth a shot. Now just waiting for AF any day now to start our new cycle.
The money things a killer for us too, I think if we do decided to do another cycle after these frosties we will try a bulk billing clinic, but I need to take a break before deciding anything. 12 months of fertility treatments feels like your entire life is on pause, everything revolves around cycles and just makes life not as fun if you know what I mean.
So fingers crossed for both of us that one of these little frosties is all we need.
Got oat to think about the work thing too...maternity leave won't last as long this time because I'm working reduced hours. Last time I ended up with 18 months paid leave as I took long service leave and maternity leave at half pay. It's been great. But I've been complacent too!
So AF arrived and we are ready to start our next cycle. I'm excited but also very scared, if this one doesn't take we are running out of options [emoji20]
I'm off for an US tomorrow, I have only been for one BT (on Monday) and already they want to do an US. It's so odd because I don't usually get the US done until they are ready for me to trigger and it seems too early for that. I really hope nothing's going wrong. Also going to be using pregnyl injections after ovulation and we have never done that before so it makes me a little nervous and totally sucks because I can't test before my Blood test [emoji12]
Good things come to those who wait myturn, so hopefully the delay is for good reason.
All went well today, I was ready to trigger so transfer is Monday. Feeling really good this cycle, no stressed or like something is amiss, so hopefully this is the one.
So transfer was cancelled [emoji22] they found fluid in my uterus before the transfer so we decided to cancel and not waste our frosty. Had an ultrasound and found fluid in one of my tubes so booked for a Laparoscopy on Friday to investigate and remove the tube. I felt so excited this time but feeling like it's one bad thing after another. We found fluid there after my IVF cycle and cancelled the transfer to give it a chance to clear up (which it did so we were able to do a FET last cycle but got a BFN). My cycle before that was a miscarriage so just feeling like he world is agains us at the moment [emoji22]
So spoke to the FS about my Lap, he found large cysts on both ovary's that had attached to my tubes, they couldn't cut them out without taking my ovary's too, so they were just drained and my tubes were clipped to stop any new liquid leaking into my uterus. Otherwise everything else looked perfect. Seems so odd that i order to get pregnant I have to take away the use of my tubes. Bloody infertility suck big time [emoji45]. Now let's just hope one of my two frosties will be enough.
Finally feeling a little normal again, Thanks for checking in 1 more please. We are going to do our FET with my next period, so still about 3 or 4 weeks away. Hoping like crazy this is the one, we have had one bad thing after another so I just feel like it has to be time for luck to be on our side. At least I hope so.
Fingers crossed Mrs Mac that your next FET is the one
I've decided to do another cycle and start stim tomorrow, I done one in February which didn't work so I have now changed FS so this will definitely be our last cycle
Well I hope this is the one, do you feel like the new FS has changed enough to make it work? Good luck and keep me updated.
We mostly decided that we wouldn't be doing another stim and that decision was made partly because of the cost involved (and that we have already tapped out our savings) and also because i had the most horrible recovery last time (nothing at all like my first time) so I just don't think I can do it again but then we started to talk recently about looking into a bulk billing clinic and I start to think could I do it again? It's seriously the hardest decision ever to decide that my family is finished [emoji45]
Mrs Mac Yes this FS is doing quite a few things differently so I'm really hoping with the changes this will bring us the BFP that we want. But in saying that this is our last try and I can go out happy I have definitely tried
everything I can.
I have heard good things about the bulk bulling clinics, I hate when I start to think could I do it again cause that means that I will give it another go LOL. Its really hard to get to that decision that its time to stop, i'm a lot older than you and have only just accepted that if this doesn't work it will be ok. With the bulk bulling clinics which will make it cheaper for ivf It might be worth giving it a go, its just so hard to say that's enough if your still young but then mentally and physically its just so bloody hard trying and it not working. I have everything crossed twice that your next FET will bring you the baby you want.
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