That's how I feel sometimes too Emma, that fertility is defining me and I hate it. I hate the fact that my whole world is evolving around TTC at times. I think it's because we have so many obstacles. But they are here and we have to deal with them. I just don't want to get to a point where it's ruining my life and my relationship. There was a time when I was really resenting my DP because it was him that wasn't ready to try again after DS was born. I kept thinking while you are taking your time, my eggs are getting older, but I knew it takes two to tango so to speak. In between the cycles we try naturally too, but I know that if we somehow conceive, it will be the biggest miracle ever. Big hugs hun, I hope that we both get there.

In regards to the PGD testing hun, it might be worth looking into. I know it's expensive, but if you want to see how healthy the embies are, that's one way of finding out. It might be nothing, which then becomes an issues why they are not sticking. I was told that under a microscope in the lab an embryo might look perfect, no fragmentation, diving nicely etc, but if there are any chromosomal abnormalities, it won't show unless you do the testing. My doc seems to think it's a lot of money to spend to find out what your body can tell you. Anyway, that might not be the issue for you hun.