Long Term TTC & Assisted Conception - August 2007 #3

Hi Everyone,
Sorry I havent' posted for a few days. Been very busy with work. Had my second session with Antonia Ruhl yesterday. Even more amazing than the first one. Saw three pregnant ladies while waiting in reception. Hoping it's a good sign. Had another wonderful experience with the pulse therapy. Can definitely feel some movement around my ovaries. Antonia was very happy because the pulse is much stronger than the first time. Both DH and I have started to notice that we have extra energy since taking the Amazon Herbal Tonics. We've been having lots of fun too. I am also taking some herbs called AD01 to help improve my egg quality. I love sitting in the reception area and chatting to other ladies. It is a very uplifting enviroment. Antonia Ruhl is the first therapist that isn't concerned about my age. What a relief when everyone else has been telling me I am too old. DH and I are feeling very optimistic about our work with Antonia. I came across a thank you message for Antonia Ruhl in Monday's Herald Sun Birth Announcements which felt really uplifting too. Conincidence? Personally I don't believe in coincidences.

Congratulations Sparkles.

A big hello to everyone. Will try to find some time to catch up with all the posts.

Love,
Kerri

Yay Sparkles that is so great:happyforyou:


Rols - I've been sleeping twelve hours a day since being on the Crinone. taking two a day as well. It must be getting close to BT now...you must be excited!

Ellie - so glad everything is looking up...and you are an inspiration to the rest of us

Mel - how are you going hun...the waiting is driving me crazy but no trip to the shop to buy a HPT yet...not sure if I will last though....three weeks is agony!:wall:


Em, Nic, BG, Smithy, Sushee and anyone who is lurking unseen..hope your cycles are all going well whereever they are up to.

on my side - the feeling of nausea has stopped (I should be happy about that right...) Sometimes I think I have a metallic taste but I could be over analysing.
How I am going to focus on work next week i don't know. But only four more weeks and then i go part time :dance: Hopefully I will be spending my spare time with Nursery stuff....have not been game to start yet.

Anyway :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl::bluedust: to everyone

Cheers
Shel

shelly and rols - afetrmy first stimulated cycle and taking crinone only once a day i was EXHAUSTED. Dh even noticed i wasnt my bubbly self for a couple of weeks after... hopefully yours is because there are some sticky embies aboard. good luck with your BT's

Ellie - honey you are so strong and focus on taking the next step so bravely. i just know your precious little bundle will be with you soon. i also know your angels are with my sleeping angel looking down and loving us for all we tried to do for them.

Kerri - good to hear Antonia is making you feel so positive, wish she was over here too!

Mel - not long till testing now!!!

Sparkles - just another congrats for you honey!!! well done both of you...

MO5 - hope the infection clears up soon. best of luck with your embie...

Yeah, seems conclusive that crinone is the culprit. I wish they'd put that on the instructions with all of the other common side effects.

DW totally normal today, not tired yet and no other symptoms. She had weird/unusual uterine feelings yesterday on and off (like being tickled from the inside I think she said) and the taste that I mentioned. So that's what I am clinging on to at the moment! Seriously, half the time we feel confident, the other half not confident. I keep reminding myself that the world will not stop revolving after a negative BT and that we can try again next cycle.

Sparkles - congratulations... that is amazing. So - you were in a cycle where you weren't even trying? I cant believe it - there is still hope! YAY!! Im having 2 months off after 3 IUI's and before starting ICSI - even going to Fiji for 2 weeks... maybe ill keep my fingers crossed for my own little miracle.. :-)

Rols - good luck - the symptoms sound good. I know what you mean about the waves of confidence and negativity... you almost feel like you will jinx things if you are positive - its hard!

Best of luck to everyone else trying... hopefully there will be even more good news to follow!!

Hmmm... now then, I take it from the lack of response that no one has used Preseed and that no one has any advice for me!?! Rols - its kind of a shameful subject... but ill just go ahead and say it - its a personal lubricant... OMG - how embaressing! But all these drugs and all the stress is taking its toll on my body and I guess I need a little help in that area? I have read that it is one of the few that doesnt contain spermicide (which obviously is what I DONT want). I just wondered if anyone had heard any adverse stories about it??

Anyway - I have to go now and stand infront of a fan or something to get rid of my red cheeks from all the blushing! hehe

Have a good day everyone - and a GREAT weekend!!

Hi Guys

Oh wow congrats Sparkles that is just fantastic!!! What a wonderful miracle to finish the week off with!

Rols - Enjoy the castle and i hope next week brings you and DW a lovely BFP! The signs look hopeful!

Karena - Don't blush we are all going through AC and there are no secrets left to blush about! I actually didn't know most contained spermicides... so i may have been killing all our chances of falling pg for years! Thanks for educating me!

Shelly - Good luck, hope your holding up well through the TWW and can't wait to hear your results! BFP here you come!

Big hi to everyone else! Im sneaking on at work so have to be quick!

Well picked up our injections and emptied the bank account today and injections on Sunday... Synarel is driving me nuts and making me feel blah... but oh well suck it up Shan! UPU is 2 weeks today and then transfer on the 19th! Exciting!!!

Shan

Oh, is that all Karena? I don't think anyone would even bat an eyelid at that type of question - you should see the stuff they discuss in the AO section. I'm not an expert on such things, but I imagine that all lubricants which have a spermicide incorporated would state as much. You may just have to ring the manufacturer to be 100%, or ask a pharmacy.

Hi guys :D
Kerri- glad that things are going well with Antonia, sounds like you are getting a lot out of it so i think that is great!
Sparkles, how many weeks preg are you? I dont know a lot about the prog levels but your Hcg is great!! Wohoo, i am so so happy for you. What did your FS say, have you celebrated, oh how exciting!
Shannon, hey dont you hate it when you have to pay all your money over, its just like ehhh. But its exciting too, time will go sort of fast now for you, its not long and i wish you all the best.
Hi Karena, hahaa dont blush too much, i think everyone in here is pretty cool with asking all sorts of questions. Its not as though IVF is not invasive!! Heee!! I dont know anything about the preseed stuff, but good luck with it! I feel sad at the mom, havent BD with DH for so long now, and its such an important part of our relationship (or any for that matter). I feel sort of unattractive to him and just blah with the Crinone, and i dont think we are supposed to in 2ww. Oh, cant wait til the waiting is over!
Rols- how is DW today? Just got to keep thinking positive, i have been trying really hard this cycle. I think last cycle i was more negative but DH was away, and this cycle is way better because i have DH's support. Your DW is lucky, from what you write on here seems like you are a great guy and its great that you are so interested and caring in the whole IVF journey. How many more days?
Shelly- im doing ok. Wait is almost over!!! How are things going with you? It will be so cool if you are preg then go part time at work, so much less stressful and all that.
Ellie- how are you going today?
Hi Sonya, how are things going for you?? Yeah, not long!
Me- well, i had the worst pains this morn. Agggh. I feel like crap. Worked nights last night and was so busy and had no break for 10 hours. Some really sick babies :( Went to bed this am and had cramping and kept waking up. Im not sure if its constipation (sorry TMI)...... or what. Driving me nuts, only 2 more doses of Crinone yay. Did another test this am, with digital. It said result will come up in 3 mins but some in as little as 1 minute. The test sad "pregnant" in less than 1 minute. Soooo not getting too ahead of myself but just have to wait and see. The witch is due tomorrow so will just see. So tired though. And hungry!! I hope we all get some BFP's in here soon. I think we all deserve it, sometimes it just seems so unfair. We try so so hard and then to have no result, well it sucks. And to miscarry, that sucks too. I dont understand why. All beautiful (inside) happy people deserve to give life. Oh well, enough of my ranting.
Hi to anyone i have forgotten. Sending heaps of :stickyvibesgirl::bluedust::crossfingers:

hey all xo
Thanks for your congrats
I am 5 weeks today
Telling family on fathers day and maybe some close friends today who have been on our roller coaster with us, im glad people are saying my hcg etc are good , makes me feel better
Praying for you all xoxoox
I will be checking in to hear good news ok
thanks everyone xoxo

Hi Mel. well first of all I really hope this is the one for you. It sounds like it is and that is awesome.

Thanks for your nice words too.

I know what you mean about the BD (I have no idea what BD/DTD stands for so I hope I got the right abbrev.) although I thought you could during the TWW? I think the crinone is the main issue for DW understandably.

We're both a bit over the whole thing at the moment (the TWW). She has no symptoms at all today (incl. not being tired which is weird as she's still on the crinone) and I think she's leaning more towards believing she's not preg. I'm a bit down about it all too and sick of not knowing. I can handle anything that is thrown at me and am great in a crisis, but am crap at waiting and not knowing stuff. It's a real weakness. It must be manifesting itself in other ways because I've been having a major cow at work today about something which is so trivial and political that its ridiculous, but nonetheless I've been totally anxious and worked up about it. This isn't like me because at work (and life) I generally have a "I don't give a s^%& what people think of me" and I don't really make much of an effort to get along with morons. What I really need at the moment is a holiday, but I'm trying to stockpile all my leave in case DW gets pregnant.

Anyway, I'll be over it tomorrow, I'm just whinging.

Good Morning Guys

Hope you are having a great weekend!

Happymel - Good luck with the BT tomorrow im sure your levels are going to be nice and high and a great big BFP!

Rols - Its nearly over, good luck om Tues!!

Big Hi to everyone else! Hope everyone is doing great!

Well first injection over with.. poor DH was white as a sheet! And was like a little kid jumping off a diving board.... 1 2 3... 1 2 3 ....1 2 3 we got there eventually and now it will only get easier!

Shan

Posted in TWW thread, but anyway, a BFN for us with the POAS test and normal AF cramps now here.

The thing that irritates me the most is the fact DW had so many symptoms in varying degrees, and apparently most of them can be put down to that fricken crinone. She didn't imagine the metallic taste either, which is a classic sign, and said it was quite noticeable. So again, maybe that has something to do with higher progesterone levels (ala crinone). Dunno, very over it at the moment.

Rols, when is the actual blood test? I tested BFN the day before mine even though it was a BFP. Don't give up hope just yet! Do you have any embryos on ice? If you can do a natural FET cycle you avoid the crinone - I found it much better as I knew that anything that happened differently was down to the embryo, not the side effects of other drugs.

BW

G'day BW,

BT is on Tuesday so two days away. I guess we are foolish for testing beforehand as I said we'd never do it. The only reason we did it is because of the AF cramps which started off mild, but are now at normal strength.

She's still go a little bit of light blood every time she goes to the loo, and definitely doesn't feel pregnant, so we're both pretty comfortable that it's a BFN.

We're both pretty good now, DW upset to start with but back to her normal happy self now. Got two high quality blasties frozen as well

Thanks heaps for the advice BW. It's nice to be able to talk to other people.

Rols im so sorry it really does suck. I too have been having AF pains on and off but I'm not due to test for another 11 days. I dont feel pregnant or different or anything at all just keep getting these cramps.

Hi guys, sorry have been AWOL for a bit, life kinda caught up with me a bit!
Exciting news, we are starting IVF/ICSI next cycle, I have my nurses appointment to learn how to give myself injections on the 12th and an embryology evening on the 20th, AF is due around the 25th I think. We are really happy to be starting the process, we can only afford to do one cycle, and then we will have to wait until mid next year if its unsuccessful, but I have lost a lot of weight, been doing acupuncture and everything else so fingers crossed it works!!!

Just sitting here waiting to hear from Mel!@?!
Well I've decided I am officially having a 'bad run'...only I would have the luck of having a miscarriage and gastro at the same time!!!! Have had the worst and sickest weekend I can remember...thank goodness it's over...now I am officially back on the TTC rollercoaster...let the games begin!

mornong all ,well i start my synarel in the morning and cant wait its finally here yay..
MUMOF5 ..i pray for you hun that the af like pain goes away and hope to hear of a bfp really soon take care and hang in there
eveyone else good luk with eveything have a nice week

Thanks Smithy having a very crappy day today. Its all just to much. You must be so excited about starting, i was when i started

Hi all.

Definitely no success this time around. AF finally came, but in a rather unusual way compared to normal - light pink blood, together with old blood, then clots. Ongoing cramping and pain too which is unusual for DW. (Neg BT as well, by the way).

The clinic agreed that an early miscarriage was possible, as DW had many pregnancy symptoms which just stopped suddenly the other day, even whilst she was still taking the crinone. She stopped the crinone this morning but the fatigue ended abruptly on Friday along with everything else.

Either way, it's a negative, so we'll be doing an FET at some point in the near future.

I might be a bit quieter than my usual rambling self for a few days as BB is serving as a bit of a reminder (along with heaps of other things!).

Good luck to everyone.

Oh Rols, so sorry..hugs

Nic

Rols - i'm so sorry to hear the BT came back negative - sending you and your DW the biggest of hugs - it is something i can completely sypathise with

don't feel bad about taking time out from BB - we all understand completely the need for self preservation.

take care

BG

oh rols im so sorry..hugs..

I'm so sorry to hear of the BT result Rols.

New thread time, everyone.